Whimsicallyy

2. But never before have I transformed the satisfaction of my boredom into such a frivolous need to take a break from everything else to think about this.
          	
          	I guess this, in a way, marks the beginning of the end for Liminal and Whims.
          	
          	Okay, enough chit-chat, I just wanted to jot down a few thoughts instead of sharing them only with the dark roof.
          	
          	Hello, reader, whether you're contemporary with this typing or someone who will discover this profile in a few years after Alice in Borderland regains fame through some trend.

Whimsicallyy

2. But never before have I transformed the satisfaction of my boredom into such a frivolous need to take a break from everything else to think about this.
          
          I guess this, in a way, marks the beginning of the end for Liminal and Whims.
          
          Okay, enough chit-chat, I just wanted to jot down a few thoughts instead of sharing them only with the dark roof.
          
          Hello, reader, whether you're contemporary with this typing or someone who will discover this profile in a few years after Alice in Borderland regains fame through some trend.

Whimsicallyy

1. I should probably spend this time drafting the next chapter or catching up on my studies, especially since I'll be busy with the math competition tomorrow and won't be home for a while right afterward.
          
          I'm worried I might forget even a fleeting detail, without which my story wouldn't feel so personal.
          
          But no, I'm here staring at the ceiling and thinking about when, one day, I'll forget about this profile and the two lives I'm giving life to by writing.
          
          When I really start to like something, I push it away instantly, because I start to see its flaws.
          I end up rejecting it as if it weren't enough, like a failed experiment no longer worthy of continuation, no longer living up to my expectations.
          
          I've been doing this since I was 12, abandoning my second Wattpad profile, before accidentally rediscovering it at 13 and discovering that the story I'd written had surpassed 150,000 views…
          
          Impressive, right?
          
          No.
          
          Boring, I dare say.
          That feeling of anguish that fills your mouth waiting for a work you don't feel is yours to be truly appreciated.
          Especially when this mechanism is triggered by everything I do, reducing me to never truly appreciating my own creativity, which I don't feel is exceptional at all.
          
          All this to say that I already know what will happen in the next chapter; I just need to dip the pen in the ink and let it flow automatically onto the paper.
          
          But the fear that waiting before that happens will result in despising this project involves me emotionally more than it should.
          
          And it really scares me, since it's been going on like this for years and nothing like this has ever happened to me.
          
          I've always handled things bigger than myself, received more insults than praise, because those who voluntarily choose to embrace my world believe they'll emerge unscathed, and when that doesn't happen, they're disappointed and take it out on me.

Whimsicallyy

The more I reread what I wrote, the more ashamed I feel of having done so, given the inhuman and overwhelming amount of things I could have added to improve it.
          
          Even the language I used bothers me a little. Give me honest feedback or I'll go crazy.

Whimsicallyy

@ChishiyaEnthusiast Personally, not only as a writer but also as a reader of other fanfiction, I'm infinitely grateful to you, especially for what you wrote at the end. I'm truly happy that it's been recognized that the Chishiya in my fanfiction isn't entirely canon, but that I've given my own interpretation to such a complex character who (in my opinion) lacks some attention in many ways. I truly thank you for your feedback and for appreciating my writing
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ChishiyaEnthusiast

@Whimsicallyy I'll give you my honest feedback :) 
            I don’t think I have the right words to describe how much I adore your story. Chishiya is my favorite character and that’s what drew me in at first, but I stayed for everything else. Your writing is breathtaking. There’s a quiet poetry in the way you weave scenes and emotions together something that feels both fragile and vivid at once. It’s complex and beautiful in a way that doesn’t just tell a story, it pulls the reader into its atmosphere and lets them live there for a little while.
            This doesn’t even feel like fanfiction to me anymore. It feels like more than that, and every new chapter feels like a gift, I'm always looking forward for new updates.
            And I have to say, I’ve read many Chishiya fics, but the way you write him is something special. It feels deeply in-character, yet you’ve somehow made him even more compelling and layered than in the manga or show, without ever losing what makes him him. 
            Thank you for writing it. It's my favorite story so far
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