Trace

I don't deserve the love people give me. Not because I hate myself, but because I'm so cruel back. I cannot love people like I should, or like a normal person would. I do the most terrible things to the most genuine people, the most sadistic. And I enjoy it, I know I shouldn't, but I do. It's my guilty pleasure, one I wish I could get help with. I'd rather it not be one I possess. 

I almost lost him this past week. I could imagine my life without him, I just really don't want to have a life without him. 

@HeyItsMe_Meg LOLOL! That's fantastic and true! Hey, message me man!

@HeyItsMe_Meg I wish I could lie and say it's easier, but I want to jump off a cliff almost every waking moment. 

@HeyItsMe_Meg wait for it, if you think it's bad this year, it gets so much worse the older you get. My freshman year was my easiest year, I miss it so much :(

@HeyItsMe_Meg I'm a junior in highschool currently :) how about yourself?

@HeyItsMe_Meg well thank you! Those kids are so sweet! I love them! But yes, I'm usually a straight A student and I'm in all advanced, so if you need help, I can definitely help you! :)

@HeyItsMe_Meg algebra 2, biology, chemistry, french 4, history, English, financial literacy, and I tutor the special ed kiddos. If you need help sometime  I could probs help out :)

@HeyItsMe_Meg what kind of classes are you in? 

So rad but bad thing, I somehow managed to fall behind in all my classes. But, I've learned if you communicate with your teachers, they're totally chill and are willing to work with you, no matter how strict of a teacher they are, so that is the coolest thing ever. This helps so much so I can start writing more again as well!