Ree
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I keep making everyone annoyed making them get away from me
I speak nonstop, do I scare them?
Talking constantly, annoying them, insisting
Everyone keeps going away, and its my fault
I want to stop speaking but I wanna be myself
When I try getting better, I will never resist and speak again
Ocs, drawings, vent, do they even care? They dont but I keep going and going
I wanna tape my mouth but
I cant
I wanna be myself but I know its gonna be the worst decision
Why cant I shut up if everyone wants that and I wanna make them happy?
When I act tough and face my problems I end up sobbing and yelling I cant out of cowardy
I cant see someone I hate to the face, even if I know Im stronger than them if they do something, Im scared they will hurt me
I end up sobbing and talking and I keep being someone who everyone hates
I end up doing the worst
Im a terrible friend
This is why Flixy went away from me temporaly and why I dealed with Zena, because I cant stop talking and crying
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