Hey, lovelies! 💜
Ah, right now I have a headache and a story to tell. Well, I just want to tell this somewhere so I can feel a little less burdened by it.
I might be cursed. No, really. 😂 Like Jungkook had his water curse during his solo era (that's what he called it, right?). I have a different curse, though. I'm not sure how to name it. 😂 (If you have any ideas, give me a name just for fun!)
Today was an exam day, so, like always, I got up early—not only to get ready, but because I can never sleep much when I'm anxious. I did my morning routine, and because I wanted to be on time for my exam, I decided to take the bus that was scheduled for one hour before my exam.
Why? Simple. In my town, the bus is always late. If it's supposed to come at 9:30, it can easily show up at 10:15. So that's why I always leave extra time.
I knew it would probably be a little late, so I waited... but then it was 10:25, and I called my mother to ask what I should do. Yeah, when I'm too tense and anxious, I can't really think properly. 😭
Well, she went to the bus station, and guess what?
There was some kind of problem with the route somewhere in the city—I honestly have no idea what exactly happened—and the bus had changed its route without any warning on their website. It went another way without stopping at the only stop that is relatively close to my home.
So... I missed my exam. 🙂
And now I'm really frustrated.
My mother was like, "Now what will happen?" and that made me feel even more pressured. I understand why she says things like that. I only have until June 2027 to pass these subjects, but... it feels worse when she reminds me of it. I know she does it because she's anxious for me and scared that if I don't pass everything, I won't be able to get my degree. But it makes me feel like it's my fault. And okay, maybe it was my fault on the other occasions when I wasn't prepared enough or something went wrong because of me. But not today. +++