WhyAmIStillLost

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          	Thank you for your kind words

piinkwolf

ok I was going to leave it alone but reread your statement and have a question...Mind letting us know the secret to ridding oneself fully of " this " disease. I didn't know that was even possible unless you committed suicide. Or learned how to cope within the disease without self injury of any form. If you don't look at anything to remind you or write anything that may remind you or read another's words about it that might remind you of it are you going to never listen to music again? never watch a movie? never smell again? going to blow out both your eardrums so you don't hear any sounds gouge out your eyes so you'll never see anything again sew your mouth shut so you can't taste anything again? then I guess suicide would be better. .the only real way of ridding yourself of the disease is..you cant..BUT what I think you were eluding to was being able to better DEAL with this disease.  Be able to BETTER understand it, work within the fact you have it...you and me and so many others have a handicap...that handicap IS NOT me. It's NOT you not I am depressed but I have depression..mmm let me say that a differant way. You are not the disease. You have a cold. you have allergies making the disease us depersonalizes us and personalizes the disease so that it becomes us.and we get smaller and less significant while it grows stronger meaner louder...cont next

piinkwolf

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@piinkwolf we have to learn to quiet the giant. we do that by accepting it for what it is, learning all we can about it, keeping notes on what's worked in the past to make things a little easier for us, what hasn't worked, yeah medication, forcing yourself out of bed, forcing yourself to do things you hare like standing in the mirror and asking why do I hate that reflection so bad ? what has that reflection really done that I hate it so bad..was it really my fualt? or something another did. why did it hurt me so bad etc tear the hell out of every thought until you can say I don't need to think or feel that anymore not about this or that, then move on to next. if you can only look at reflection for three seconds ,we'll that's today next week you maybe get 5 seconds then a minute . The more you do this the easier it becomes..said nothing about how long it take but I promise it won't be that long before your having conversations with your reflection and maybe even get to like it some..the only person that will ever be you is you. get to know you. YOU nobody else are responsible for your actions and reactions. fuck I get tired of hearing me say others here's a way you might help you but I can't even do the things I KNOW WORK it's been a bad month sorry...Adalaine
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piinkwolf

hey you? Yeah you still here by any chance

piinkwolf

@piinkwolf had to erase a bunch not going to repeat to tired...Adalaine
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piinkwolf

@piinkwolf guess not..it's not holding you back..you do that on your own. If you think leaving will calm the voices in your head there only going to get louder. you can't run from yourself. Infamous words by a great man: wherever you are there you are...Mike Brady thing is if it Is cause just to much other going on and this was taking up to much of your time by all means tell it has a baby see you on the flips use good buddy I need to prioritize and right now you don't even make the top ten...you know school, homework gags , work , BF , GF , personal time ,sleep , Fridays ,ladies night out, you see where I'm going...think about it..maybe give two hours 2 a week here.. it's kind of like putting your sharps away and not using them as a coping thing..but you still keep up maintanance you don't throw them out..some do and kudos to them for being able to I'm not that strong...a friend said she wouldn't be a moderator at my website  (it ain't up yet) cause she didn't want to be around depressed poeple anymore..cept everytime she looks in the mirror she faces it..she's no happier.
            I'm sure that you have given much thought to this decision...cold turkey I've always thought was best way to stop any addiction be it drugs self injury Internet gambling sex what have you and maybe it will be the right thing for you..there are two things I noticed in your statement was one that Wattpad had been a lifesaver to you and the other was that it was the reason you were being held back. if it helped you so much then why do you view it now as  detrimental and the reason for....the reason you are constantly reminded of your own pain?? so if you turn this channel off they will go away and you can happily go about your day?? see beginning what I mentioned how that's going to work...it's always a good thing I think to take anything in
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