BlueWillowCreek

Ya'll convince me not to quite CAP </3

My sister got baptized into our church yesterday, and I'm so happy for her :)

IT'S ME THE TR@UMA PERSON

PAST LIFE IS OUT LETS GOOOOOO!!!! TIME TO BINGE

Just so you all know, that boot camp for kids I was talking about was an absolute awesome experience.

Guys I am scared shitless -
          
          I'm going to basically a boot camp for kids. It'll be fun, but Glob, I'm scared.

I don't know why Pride Month makes me feel so sad.. 
          
          It literally should not. It's supposed to be a time to recognize the worth of people who feel a difference in romantic attraction then other people. 
          
          I should feel happy.
          
          I should feel loved.
          
          But all I feel is emptiness. Maybe that is why I don't like Pride Month.
          
          Because no matter what I do, I just don't care for something I don't feel is valuable in my life. I value my education and the future I can sustain with that education. I value it more then I value my sexual/romantic attraction.
          
          Because no matter how much you try to worship the human body to achieve self acceptance, you will never feel completely or truly whole. There is nothing more flawed then relying on others to lift you up and give you validation.
          
          To rely on a whole month to make you feel loved. Maybe that's why I feel so empty. Because I just don't relate with everyone else. Because my goals and motivations don't align with anyone else I'm around. True lonliness isn't being lonely in a room full of (random) people. it's being in a room full of people you know and love- yet, still feeling like you have no one to talk to. No one to trust.
          
          That's how I feel about Pride Month. And that's why I feel so lonely all the time.
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Sorry for that random rant-

Hah.. So my birthday was yesterday. I mean it wasn't an aweful day. It just wasn't the best day. And because my party was today, I was really stressed because I had to do a lot of the stuff myself. Glob, I feel bad my friends- I snap when I'm stressed and geez, I got pissy a coupla times-

I DONT WANT TO GOOOOOOO :((((
          NOOOOOOOO 
          I DONT WANT IT TO ENDDDD
          :((((

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!
          
          (I'm fsy now lol)