thing

I thought I couldn't love anymore
          Turns out I can't
          Not for the same reasons as before
          I use everyone I ever meet
          I can't find the perfect match
          Abused as I learned
          While I ostracized the ones who loved me back
          
          On the path of least resistance
          I find myself salting the earth
          Every time that I miss you
          I feel the way you hurt
          And I don't deserve you
          You deserve the world
          Though it feels like we were built from the same dirt
          
          Oh, I hate to say it but your sister was right
          Don't trust English boys with far too much free time
          I hate to say it but your sister was right
          I'm nothing but a problem, leave you crying overnight
          And I hate to say it but your sister was right
          I can't focus on the future, only my short sight
          I hate to say it but your sister was right
          I'm a wanker, complete wanker
          A fucking waste of time

I think this time I'm dying
          I'm not melodramatic, I'm just pragmatic beyond any reasoning
          For thinking I've got fuckin' rabies or something
          I think this time I'm dying
          I think this time I'm dying
          
          I think I've lost my mind
          Blurring the fact and the fictions
          While simultaneously fixing
          Myself up with a girl
          Named Panadol
          Bite the tablet, elixir
          Disintegrate, mouth's a mixer
          I think I've lost my mind
          I think I've lost my mind
          
          If I could just break one more night
          Maybe I could wake up and feel alright
          I optimistically set alarm clock times
          Serves only to mock me with flashing lights
          
          I think I've made my choice
          I'm a disease playing victim
          Slip the face slip the victory
          I think I've made my choice
          Sick, secluded and hatred
          Void the plans friends are making
          I think I've found my voice
          I'm a leech-sucking blood bags
          Taste defeat, it's a sandbag
          
          Saline solution
          Saline solution to all your
          Saline solution to all your
          Saline solution to all your problems

Wasting your time
          You're wasting mine
          I hate to see you leaving
          A fate worse than dying
          
          Your city gave me asthma
          So that's why I'm fucking leaving
          And your water gave me cancer
          And the pavement hurt my feelings
          
          Shout at the wall
          'Cause the walls don't fucking love you
          Shout at the wall
          'Cause the walls don't fucking love you
          
          
          There's a reason
          That London puts barriers on the tube line
          There's a reason
          
          That London puts barriers on the rails
          There's a reason
          
          That London puts barriers on the tube line
          There's a reason
          
          That London puts barriers on the rails
          There's a reason
          
          That London puts barriers on the tube line
          
          There's a reason they fail

I've met someone that makes me feel seasick
          Oh what a skill to have
          Oh what a skill to have
          So many skills that make them distinctive
          But they're not mine to have
          No they're not mine

I used to like liquor to get me inspired
          but you look so beautiful, my new supplier.
          
          I used to like smoking to stop all the thinking but I found a different buzz.
          
          The world is a curse, it'll kill if you let it.
          
          I know they got pills that can help you forget it.
          
          They bottle it call it medicine, but I don't need drugs

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just realized that when me and my bestfriend dated for a week we never actually broke up, so technically we have been dating for a year and both cheated on eachother
          
          currently having a breakdown :)