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Yallllllll it’s been a minute  I took a good hour today to look over this account and all my notifications and my goddd. It’s so surreal seeing this account again and seeing who I was years ago I keep getting notifications on y’all wanting me to finish my stories.. but Barbie’s listen… I was 17 and high 90% of the time when I wrote that stuff. Idk who that girl was I’m weed free going on 22 year old today with ten times more trauma than I had before  butttt I was thinking about it and I might (might!!) write one last chapter for each that are unfinished to wrap it up but it might take a big glass of wine and the last bit of my self respect to comb through those chapters I physically cringe thinking about.. but we will see. 

I just wondering when ur going to update of the maya and lucas story “Different”
          Bc it’s an amazing book and I’m actually rereading it right now

I had a panic attack watching euphoria this morning I had just woken up and watched it the episode stressed me out so bad to the point of having a panic attack lmaoooo 

Health insurance got me feeling different I just got nasal spray for my sinus’s and I ain’t ever even heard of that shit tf no self pay clinic I’ve step foot in ever prescribed me medicated nasal spray got me feeling rich and shit lmaooo 

Welp after only starting work for health insurance ya girl finally got it.. it only took four years but at least I reached the goal

I need life to give me a break before I just give up I’ve been trying for years it’s just never ending I’m on double the dosage of my depression medication more then what is normal I’m on bipolar medication and it’s like nothing helps at this point it’s just a matter of if I’m strong enough to just give up 

My practically brand new suvs transmission completely failed this morning :) i was two hours late to work and sobbed all the way there ain’t no way my $38,000 car blew its transmission with only 60,000 miles on it imma kms and  istg if these mf won’t fix it for free under warranty I’ll physically fight until they do I’m not playing :):) 

Bro I feel bad asking cuz I don't know what's happening in ur life but like when will u update it's been awhile..I'm sorry.

Update?

I think watching criminal minds at night home alone where I live in the middle of the woods without a worry should be something i need to talk to a therapist about