To be honest with myself, I'm a bad friend. I do not understand how or why I have any. It's totally valid my close real life friends blocked me. 
If I could, I'd block myself too. I don't think we're friends anymore! But that's fine. :D. I tell myself not to get affected by it. But sometimes I can't help but cry. It's really not fair. This is why I hate trios. I'm always left out, or they just relate to each other better! I guess that does make sense!