WillThisEverBeOver

{if you're reading this, I'm probably never going to respond to you again on wattpad because I'm not logging into my account anymore}
          {for those that care, my discord is willowyvines666 }
          stay safe everyone

{You ever have those moments you just don't care what happens before morning light anymore?}
          {You've come so far and had so much progress yet you're willing to throw it all away for a simple bit of peace and tranquility or even to be empty rather than to feel all this pain underneath the surface}
          {Fucking sucks}

I love you 

{Currently spiralling mentally}
          {About to make a bad choice but it may be the only help}
          {How many times will I slip before I fuck up awfully again, I wonder}
          {Guess we'll see}

{I forgot how much getting hit in the head hurts}

{I love when you're in intense physical pain so you decide to take a pain reliever}
          {Then hours later it still hasn't helped}
          {Then you remember your body's just gotten used to the pills even when they weren't needed and they're doing nothing now because of your dumbass popping them like they were candy years ago}

{My nerves are really fucked up right now}
          {Drugs and alcohol are all that really calm me when I get this bad so...}

{I'm thinking of taking a break from wattpad for a bit for mental health reasons among other reasons}
          {Might still pop on occasionally but I'm thinking around a week or two..}
          {If you have my discord or email we can still talk like that but I'm probably staying offline more..}

{I thought they were an illusion when they were there}
          {So I ignored them and told myself it was all in my head and they vanished}
          {Now they're back and I'm beginning to think maybe the illusion was when they were gone not when they were here}
          {Now that they're back it feels like I'm home}
          {But you're all different this time}

{I believe I have said this before but I will say it again: addicts trying to get sober and addicts that are sober should not be forced to be around temptation}
          {It is highly likely they will snap}
          {Seems little common knowledge}
          {Yet not many seem to understand nor care}