WingedRabbit

 I don't want to live.
          Don't want to breathe.
          If I try to take my life don't try to save me.
          
          You ask me why I don't share,
          Well I don't think you really care.
          
          Blank stares climbing stairs.
          
          Life wasn't meant to be easy,
          But I didn't now it would be this hard.
          
          It's easier to ride a wave of fake smiles then to drown in a sea of emotions.
          
          All these fake devotions.
          
          I'm tired of listening to false prophets.
          All they want is people's profits.
          
          If life is a lie then death is the truth.
          Then if life is a question death is the answer.
          
          Right?
          
          Wrong.
          
          Stop looking for ways to pass on your pain to others.
          
          Just look around at all of these childless mothers.
          
          I'm dying, I'm smiling, but inside I'm crying.
          
          What lies are you buying?
          
          I want to see a day when people 
          Don't cry
          Don't die.
          We'll fly, tears will dry, and we won't hear another 'white lie'.
          
          The days are getting longer,
          The lies are getting stronger.
          I'm going bonkers.
          
          I don't know why you bother.
          
          Even though I didn't want to,
          You made me new.
          
          Now my life is better,
          I'm stronger now,
          More than ever.
          
          To all of you with friends who don't have the strength to live, lift them up and give them and extra limb.
          
          Even though at some times all you can do is breathe, it's better than trying to leave.
          
          
          I want to see a day when people 
          Don't cry
          Don't die.
          We'll fly, tears will dry, and we won't hear another 'white lie'.

 Why do I sit here in the shadows?
          Wading by, just like the shallows of the ocean.
          Paying no attention or notion.
          And my heart beats every single second.
          Except when I wish it didn't anymore.
          I don't want anymore.
          But still, days pass by.
          Making me their victim.
          I will die,
          the plot will thicken.
          In my eyes, there remains no trace of the stars.
          Only scars.
          
          Every step I take, it feels like I'm about to break.
          I put on a fake smile, 
          I'm sitting pretty.
          When you see me cry,
          I don't want your pitty.
          I have many reasons to live,
          But I have reasons not to.
          Yes, my life wasn't the worst, but it wasn't the best either.
          Some times I don't know what to do,
          They say to 'take a breather'.
          I get jealous of the starry eyed people who have no scars.
          
          They say "don't be selfish, people had it worse than you, so you can't be sad" so you hide your tears and fake a smile.
          But people don't say "Don't be selfish, people had it better than you, so stop being so happy, and go change your life style".
          
          People don't ponder, 
          Don't wander.
          Don't ever ask why he's alive no longer.
          His family says he a dishonor.
          He's a goner.
          
          Razor blades in drawers.
          People praying on all fours.
          
          The stars are disappearing, there are less now.
          Soon there will only a blank sky, will the last few take a bow.
          
          Now there are no more stars only scars.
          
          Where did you go to?
          I didn't know you.
          But I'd of liked to.
          But it's to late now.
          
          Now all that's left of you are scars,
          If only we had noticed the stars.

Thank you for offering to help me with your swim team experience.  Please let me know if there is anyway I can help you in return :D