Winter Woods

Pt. 2 of 2
          Lately I've noticed I have a bit of a self esteem issue, and while I try to hide it from people with being loud and obnoxious jokes until the subject is changed or I can make a tactical retreat. I have a horrible attention span, and a serious lack of motivation problem, especially when I do find the motivation to focus on something until the point where I get burned out, and then I cannot bring myself to resume because I don't want to continue the cycle. 
          
          I have started using AO3, currently in the DSMP fandom and I have posted things on there, but I have no idea if I'm going to continue writing on here. I don't know if you guys still pay attention to the notifications from me, but I have attempted to post something twice here before publishing it. I've even considered deleting my stories here, but as of right now that's not the final plan. Maybe I can regain the spark that encouraged me to write here, but not right now. I've noticed a lot of fandoms have been dying here anyway, maybe this is just me joining the masses. Migrating with everyone else.
          
          I am still alive though, a lot of things have been happing, both good and bad. . . horribly bad. . . I can never deal with grief and I hate it, but things are finally starting to look up. I do miss having conversations with you guys and spotting different people across different fandoms, and maybe it could begin again. But for now things may return to radio silence on my end. 
          
          
          I'm sorry for going ghost on you guys. Y'all are amazing and I do hope you all are doing well. Y'all are stars, never forget that and keep shining bright.

Pt. 1 of ?
          So the big question: where have I been?
          
          So yea. It's been how long? Since before covid where I pretty much vanished from here...
          
          If you want excuses I could say I was focusing on schoolwork(I'm a hands on learner so going virtual really tanked my grades), I could say I got caught up in various activities that left me with no time to write, I moved, I started focusing more on my career, I started making plans for when I inevitably hit the big number eighteen, there's so many things that I could say to defend myself it's ridiculous.
          
          The truth is, I lost motivation.
          
          I'm a people person. I can't deny it. I crave validation, cancel me on twitter I guess, but I am sorry. It got disheartening to see the books I wrote, poured a lot of time into and worked up the courage to post get ignored for so long, and even when there was views there was only silence? I don't know, it started to become a chore to update, then an obligation to finish what I started until I couldn't bring myself to open any of the documents. 
          
          I still write, because of course I do I love writing, but I haven't been able to bring myself to post any of it. 
          
          Currently, I'm sitting on 10 unpublished chaptered stories that are all in various stages of writing. In my book of oneshots I'm up to 50 parts, and I'm pretty sure I haven't even posted half of them. I've got notes and drables and half thought out story ideas that I've been sitting on because I feel like I would be the only one to see it if I post it, so why go through the effort? 

Hey bestie lmfao I have a new account 

So a lot of shits been happening and I haven't had time to write so sorry for literally disappearing on you guys. Working on the next Hardlanding chapter, as well as my other projects as things die down. Sorry for not letting you guys know though.  

Your all adopted

I have a confession to make. Before I say it, I just want you all to know I am terribly sorry for my actions and I understand that it is frowned upon in this minecraft christian server and I would understand if you unsubscribed and never twitch primed again, but I do not regret these actions. With that being said, I am a cheater. I've cheated on you all with AO3. I am sorry for keeping this a secret but I am not sorry for my actions. AO3 is hot as fuck and I don't get bamboozled by triggering shit (wattpad what the fuck why would you reccomend me a story where literal children are being raped and shit like that) skipping across my dashboard and other questionable stories and material. AO3 has that yes, but unlike wattpad it is very easy to notice those tags and avoid them(also the reccomendations are not snorting crack) and the organization is ✨chef's kiss✨
          
          I am still using wattpad, I write on here afterall, but I'll be honest I barely read things on here anymore. Also, AO3 deletes drafts after like a month so if I was to completely move over there I'd loose like 8 in progress storylines and half written plots. 
          
          Tl;Dr your frisbee Winter has been cheating on Wattpad with another woman, got married and went on a honeymoon with AO3 and has come crawling back with apologies and word vomit to appease thy anger. ✨sparkles✨

Rising from my hobbit hole to say happy pride pals, your local bi fairy squad mother will punt anyone who tries to hurt you for being you. Something is gonna get updated soon, but it has come to my attention that I've negected all my Fairytail stories, and I feel bad because I want to finish them, but writing Fairytail content just doesn't interest me, and the few times I've tried it's felt like a chore. Do you guys want me to finish them, because I will if you want. If not, I just plan to finish editing RotCP and Insanity and throw in the towel on the other one since I never wrote a plot for it, and I don't remember what I had planned for it. 

So yea. . .I've been planning to publish my things on AO3. I've looked at it for a bit and it's pretty cool. I'll be updating things here(because Wattpad will still be my main bitch), and I'll let you guys know when I start posting on AO3. Also, I plan on doing some heavy rewriting on pretty much all of my old books. One more thing, I've been making plans to write some DSMP stuff, as well as another It's Us AU, and an original story that's based on an SMP I played for a while. Stay tuned for all of these projects, happy pride to all my lgbtq+ peeps, and have a great summer!

Bruh I'm bout to bitchslap wattpad's bitchass. How the cover for Hardlanding: The Lost Sins ended up like that, but it'll be fixed in a bit. Also, any other writers having issues with saving things?

Hey, miss you guys. Yall doing okay?