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WARGGH, DAME YO DAMEEE DAMEEEE!

I really wanna date some of the girls there, LMAO! >< 
            
            wait.. no. no. My mom is beside me. I've to stay calm. I have to maintain my reputation of being heterosexual.

GUYS WHY ARE THERE SO MANY GOOD LOOKING PEOPLE THERE!? THEY ARE SO HOT.. I feel like I'm back in Singapore, even though I'm in Jakarta now.

as usual, I chose an outfit that was a bit revealing for the feminine, because the people there definitely have outfits that suit their tastes.

but still Coldplay songs can't leave my heart

Correction: we started meeting between June/July 2025 I think and ended the relationship in December 2025 (my birth month btw) and March 2026 refers to the story I wrote in the third column.

at the time i feel shocked and confused about what I should do about this so i just ignored it at first. but she always visited my profile account and a few days later she finally appeared in my album comments and just said "Hi" finally I started following her back and ask her "I assume that you miss me?" and she replied "yaps, aku kaya orang gamon" *WHAT? That made me feel strange again, and I immediately unfriended her again. I started to ignore her even though she kept visiting my profile.
            
            in early March this year.. I don't know why I.. really miss her.. I know this shouldn't be like this but I DO. *T_T (how pathetic)
            
            I followed her account again and she still follows mine, I don't know why she still follows me.. when she was online maybe she saw that I followed her account back. We were silent and finally I decided to invite her and she to come into my lobby *silence
            
            I started typing and texted only a "" emoji and she just replied "??" then i texted again "nothing, just wanted to say hi^^ how's your days btw?" and he replied again with "oh, good. maybe." *such a dry text, cold like the first time we met as strangers..
            
            I forgot but we only played 2 matches after that, she and I were off, the next day I told her that "I will delete this game and that's why i follow you again because i want to play with you before i delete it" (lie. Actually I really miss her) and she just replied "oh.. yah.." *Idk what reaction that is.. a disappointed reaction or.. just normal?
            
            we played again and more than 4 matches, maybe this is the last time we played together because before i deleted the game, i logged in to the game every day but she was last seen online 4 days ago, I feel a little empty and disappointed.. in the end she doesn't care about me anymore I think? I acted like I was living my life normally as if there was no heartache in my chest.. oh.. 
            
            (I wrote this story to get my feelings out, I hope she reads this..)

oh I missed something, correction (what I said when she used pp JMJ couple with someone turned out it was a GUY not a girl) well when she labels herself "WLW" it means she's into girls.. and it should be related to someone she calls "Mommy" i think? hum I didn't ask much so I just kept quiet..
            
            I once felt annoyed, upset with her because she started to act nonchalant, cold and that's when I started to ignore her, and left her to play with other people until finally she asked me "why", I who had previously acted 'indifferent' wanted to explain what I felt, in the end I explained and she immediately apologized and explained that she had been feeling stressed lately because of a lot of work maybe? or something else.. idk. After that she gave me 'STARLIGHT' as make it up, it made my mood change from swing to better. I said "THANKYOUU^^" to her and she replied "hahaha sama sama sayang" I feel bad for her, didn't Starlight give out quite a lot of diamonds? I asked that and guess what her answer was? she replied "Aku cuma mau kasih ke kamu, aku masih punya 3" *DAMN she said it as if it wasn't much
            
            Day by day my feelings for her, which were casual, deepened and I started doing weird things that I didn't usually do. I started checking frequently when she was last online, who she was playing with, and who are the people who have an affinity with her. I started to lose focus on my studies, spending my days thinking only about her. At that time, I began to realize that this behavior was unhealthy and this is a 'RED FLAG' for me. I ended our relationship without status by unfriending her account from my friendlist, I started to busy myself by spending time with my irl friends, studying, playing badminton and workout.
            
            then when I logged back into the game and there was a comment notification on my album and when I saw someone commenting like this "Gua mau minta tolong, plis follow balik akun si K*****" maybe it's one of her friends i think?

even though it was a week ago

Actually, today I have returned to Jakarta. My family and I were only in Singapore for 8 days. Hmm, I already miss Singapore...

that's ugh.. a bit emotional (⁠╥ _ ⁠╥⁠)

then the playlist 'Cigarette After Sex' played in my ears~