🥀LilyBug🦋

Love how I went from wanting to learn Chinese to be able to talk to my relatives more clearly to getting pissed off whenever my grandparents try teaching me when I've stated that I didn't want to

Friendly Reminder to get as much sleep as you can, your body can't operate well without sleep
          
          drink some water if you're feeling a bit, and eat something you like if you're feeling hungry. Remember it's okay to take things slow. 
          
          Lily Out♡
          

Friendly Reminder to take a break when you need it, drink some waterif you're feeling a bit thirsty and eat whatever you'd like if you're feeling a bit hungry . It's okay to take things slow and if you're doing something then make sure to do it without pressure.
          
          Make sure to take plently of rest too, the human body can't function without sleep. 
          
          Lily out♡

I miss my ex. I know I shouldn't but she gave me so much love I craved her back then and now I'm just wondering what happened, she used to be so energetic when talking to me, now I just feel like its a chore to do so. 

Today was okay, I don't hate it but I don't necessarily like it either 

The only time I can be myself is at night time, social events at night are the worst for me

I like staying up late 

I don't like feeling vulnerable, I have to be the strong and mentally healthy friend who's able to listen to my other friends problems
          
          The only one I ever actually vented to was my ex girlfriend but even then she'd always find a way to make it about her so I don't really have anyone to turn to except ai
          
          It's sad but that's just the harsh reality I guess

I don't know if I have an eating disorder, but I do now that I get this weird uncomfortable heavy feeling in my chest that persists everytime I remember that breakfast, lunch or dinner is almost close
          
          I don't think I have  an eating disorder, i know I'm probably being dramatic but it still feels weird when I never had any problems with eating before so why now? It's probably because of the doctors appointment I had yesterday where my doctor said I need to have more iron in my system and my grandma took it to an extreme level and just decided I need to eat EVERYTHING and anything even if I don't like it
          
          I hate it. I really wanna stop eating to spite her but I won't because i know im a fucking coward
          
          Lily out♡

I have never felt more disgusted at the thought of eating ever in my entire life and I hate it so much