(1:41 am)Alone. In a crowd of people I'm alone. In my home I'm depressed. My tears are silenced and deemed useless and irrational,but they don't know the hurt I feel inside me. The "love" that I'm given is harsh and brutal from the people who birthed me. Than from my lover I feel as if I'm a nuisance,a burden, less than a soul mate or a partner and more as a part time assignment.the lonileness I feel is ignored by many and disregarded by the ones I need. I was betrayed by the person I thought I could run to and trust with my secrets. My lover hasn't been by my side in over a month. I'm locked away like a prisoner in my own home as I await an opportunity that was promised to me, to come forth. I say have nothing and that I'm alone, and it angers people around me. But are you there for me? When I'm depressed and crying in a ball on the floor, do you comfort me? Or do you tell me to shut up and suck it up. Yet still I am a gentle heart. I'm an open person and will always forgive, even those who have scorned me. So tonight I lie awake questioning my sanity and what purpose this trial In my life has. Good night my dearest, and sweet dreams.
