experienced strong homophobia in person for the first time today. i was trying so hard not to tremble as the man spoke of how unnatural it was, and how God decapitated people for being that way. everyone around him all agreed how horrible gay people were, it went on forever. my dad was apart of the group and laughed, and he knew i was bisexual. later on he told me it didn't matter bc since i like boys too, it doesn't count, i'm not a real gay. and there was no way i could say anything back, i just nodded my head and tried to blink back tears. they'll never understand, none of them will, so i won't even bother wasting my breath. its almost 2am and i just can't stop thinking about today.