WorldSystem011291

Check in for the year 2023  i finally remembered my password... now i need some catching up to do with what's new in wattpad  aaaannnddd also on the novel updates in my library.. ✌️

WorldSystem011291

I feel physically and mentally stressed, I feel depressed and I feel not in the mood to talk sometimes. I don't like to move that much and get hurts hearing hurtful words when in fact they're right. I feel the pressure and disappointments that people around me made me feel. I feel that they're right about me being so stupid and naive. Why can't be someone they expect and why can't I get things right? I know that I have a problem because I focus too much on what I do and forgetting and muting my surroundings. It made people around me offended because I'm not listening to them. I don't know how I did it but my mind can't multitask when it comes to listening. I feel like my depression is coming back, not as severe as before, but I keep trying to distract myself. The result of distracting myself ends up different for those people around me thinking I'm lazy and uncooperative. I want to help really but I need to condition myself first so that I can before doing it. And it backfired because it took too long to condition my feelings and they've already done the job. I'm almost at my limit. I escaped thru reading any novels i find online. I find angsty genre if I want to cry, comedy and romance genre if I want to feel happy and sweet, and fantasy genre to not feel the reality but I know I need to go back to reality. I don't know what's happening to me. And I keep thinking in my head, am i depressed? am i bipolar? Or do I have other mental issues? Sorry i just need to let it out.