I've realized something Important---
In the past several years I've been writing for an audience, my stubborn way of not planning much out at all makes for such a lackluster way of storytelling. And the past few days I've been relentlessly watching YouTube videos, making character charts to plan everything out with, etc.
And omg the world building... I made so many plot holes without even realizing it just for myself. IM DONE JUST RANDOMLY POSTING IDEAS.
No wonder I don't value my writing, or feel like it's awful. If I don't put enough care into it how will people care about it?