Hi, Just wanted to say something, please do not LOSE HOPE, keep that sparkle alive inside you. Bholebaba and Mata Rani is looking after you, just pray to them, they know the future, not you not anyone else, you might not be feeling it today but they have something better for you which will give you genuine happiness from heart. Don't give up at your life..you are meant to do great things, live your life fully, enjoy little little things, can understand time is hard right now, but GOOD time will also come, There is a morning after every night.
If there is a temple nearby your house, please do offer Water to Shivling, TRUST ME, you will.get immense peace and will find strength to move forward.
Just tell bholenath and Maa about all your problems, they will always listen and understand and leave everything to them, they will handle everything. Be a BRAVE daughter
Take care :)