They asked me what depression felt like and I told them, "it's like falling with no one to catch you. Drowning well everyone else is swimming. Depression is not eating, huddling in the dark. It's the smile that hides the darkness and scars. The worst kind is, when you can't hide it anymore. When it takes you over and you walk around with tears and a frown and short sleeves so everyone can see your wrists! Depression isn't a disease... it's a life. It's the lack of escape and the waiting. It's standing on the train tracks as the train comes barreling towards you. Standing on a bridge and jumping? That's depression. Depression is blackness, loneliness and agony so great that you become lost in it. It's the devil himself inside of you."