A little clip from Long Run.
I barely slept at all. I was tossing and turning all night. I waited for Simon, he did not come home last night. He did not call or text. I know he is alright because Beta Cole would have let me know if something happened. Simon never did this before.
At one point I got up and sat in front of the door. Watching it, praying for it to open, praying for him to come through those doors. I stared at the phone begging for it to ring. I was begging for any news good or bad. I just wanted answers. I could not focus on anything. My mind was just overthinking everything. I could not come up with what is happening with him lately.
During our busy season, he sometimes came home at midnight because he and Cole were working. But he always came home, not once he stayed at the office, at Coles's place, or somewhere else. He always came home to me!
I know something has changed between us. We have not had sex in four months. He does not hug me, kiss me, or touch my body as he used to. We used to have sex a couple of times a week but now it's nothing. When we are out in public he holds my hand but it feels fake like it's for show.