Sometimes I wish I couldn't remember my horrible memories... There is a lot of people I miss... I can't get out of my head.. My obsession with them skyrockets... I can't even sleep sometimes cause of the delusional nightmares I have... It sucks... I hate it... I just wish I could have one person who understands me perfectly... And wouldn't leave... While yes there is someone right now... He's too gentle... He's sweet.. I don't wanna hurt or corrupt him with my viciousness...