X Abril Arellano X

Update on this situation. 
          I think I'm being emotionally abused by my mother.
          Wow what a great fucking start.
          And hey guess what also? 
          I lost my phone because of my own mother throwing my shit outside, LATE AT NIGHT.
          RESULTING IT BEING STOLEN.
          AND NOW MOTHER IS GIVING ME THE SILENT TREATMENT WOOOOOOW.
          Seriously, help please.
          Im really fucking lonely now....
          No friends really....
          Just my bf and my friend. 
          Please
          Help
          Me
          Im explaining the whole situation that im currently in
          in one of my stories in this account (the one im using currently right now)
          Please, I need virtual support.
          Please.
          :(

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          The Internet was a happy place for me.
          I felt safe.
          I met new furries everyday.
          New people.
          Found new or interesting information. 
          New games. 
          It was......
          Fun.
          Now to get yall up to date on me, I have access to the Internet, but limited access. This includes downloading apps, texting, and posting things.
          The only social media I have is TikTok at the moment. 
          Im not animating at the moment but I wil get back to it soon.
          Im improving on drawing, and Im starting to make fursuits now. 
          Well.... I'm learning to make some.
          And.......
          Im trying to find Fandren.............
          Feel free to ask what my TikTok is later.
          Idk if im gonna get back to making a yt channel.
          Its uncertain. 
          But for right now, its not on the table.
          And to show you how im up to date with the Internet right now......
          Red is sus af-
          I like ur cut g- *insert taco bell sound*
          Fuck 2020
          - Blade (Its not Kittydroid anymore.)

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          Hey, Yall. Surprise, Surprise. 
          Im not dead. Im using my first account to say sum shit since I don't know this account's password anymore. Im not dead. No, I did not take a break, no, I didn't want to prank you guys. I was forced to leave by my parents for personal reasons. 
          Something major happened that involved Fandren in this case. 
          My parents had made me cut contact to the whole Internet, including Fandren. 
          This made me beyond depressed. 
          Suicidal. 
          It's the fact that I couldn't text anyone, that I couldn't see how the Internet was doing, no animating, nothing. The first day without my phone.... I felt like I had no purpose. 
          Im sure you are like "But wait, there's other stuff you can enjoy. ". 
          I TRIED. 
          I tried enjoying the outside world, but I'm scared of the outside world. I fear the outside world. Not because of what's going on right now, its because nature scares me of how its nearly killed me multiple times and I'm generally judged by everyone of how I do everything. Walking, posture, drawing, eating, doing things, my mistakes. Every time I was judged, I felt like I was a mistake to the world.
          2019 was the most fucked up year of my life. Yeah sure, 2020 is worse, but I was cut from the Internet. 

School sucks dooooooong...
          Ppl can't teach right XD

Oof life is pointless