Olivander

This account makes me want to unalive myself 

Yoooo. Lol so I quit my job that I’ve had for the last 9 1/2 months, cause I fucking hate it. Like omg do I hate it there, it’s toxic asf. So I’m looking for a new job while I finish up my last 2 weeks (if I even make it THAT long) and it’s rough. Also I’m so sorry to anyone who still reads my fanfic. I haven’t written anything since I was like 15, I’m almost 19 and I have NO time at all for that.
          
          On a more positive note, I’m joining the military pretty soon. I’m sooooo excited for basic training next year (I have to wait till I get my braces off), like plz scream at me I’m so unmotivated. I joined the gym to instill more discipline in my life, and get sWoL. Hit me up in 6 months and I’ll send pics of my abs. Jk plz don’t.

Wowie it’s been a hot minute. Here’s a quick update on my life. I got a new job that pays pretty well considering the line of work. I got a boyfriend and then broke up with him a month later. I had a decline in my mental health and was in the hospital. But I’m going to therapy now so that’s cool. I just got the new Dragon Quest (ew what a nerd). I obvi don’t really write anymore, at least on here and I apologize for that. 

Incase anyone was wondering, I’m basically half an adult now. I finished high school and I graduate Saturday. My 18th birthday is in like a month and a half. So imma work and write music for the next 7 months. I probs won’t be on here a lot (not like I’m ever on here anyway lol). First person to find my shitty indie band on bandcamp can have my first born son 

I did work you guys, I'm so proud of myself.
          
          Just released "Product of The Heart" and a published a new chapter of "Finding Our Way Through Fantasy" So check those out!
          
          Also, my story "Forget Me Not" has less than 30 reads so I don't see the point right now in editing, I will if more people show interest.
          
          I got summer assignments for Pre-Cal in august, lucky me I'm good at maths so it shouldn't take long to finish. But it might take up a good chunk of my free time ugh.

ATTENTION
          
          I will be starting a new book containing my ORIGINAL WORK. Most pieces will be poems, but their may be a short story or two.
          
          Also, if you would like someone to review your writing (whether it be for school or online works) feel free to message me! I am always happy to give advice, tips, or revise your work. I'm sure most other writers on here would allow this as well. 
          
          I hope everyone has a great summer!

Well, my junior year is officially over. So uh.... what now?
          
          The only person who hangs out with me will be out of town nearly the whole summer. I don't have a job to keep me occupied. No summer activities. No road trips. OH and no therapy cause I doubt my mother will schedule another appointment :D so I get to wallow in my depression alone for 2 and a half months! 
          
          Like everyone I know leaves the state. Literally the only place I go is camping like 30 minutes away cause I'm a loser with no money/social life.
          
          I haven't done anything super cool over the summer since I was like 10, so about 7 years.
          
          My birthday is this summer, but wtf can you do at 17? Go see an R rated movie, that's it XD
          
          
          I just needed to publicly rant you guys, no response required, I'm just frustrated.
          
          To another shitty summer!

I've applied for a job at 4 places since November. 2 grocery stores, a pharmacy/convenient store, and a hardware store. They all hire 16 year olds and some people at my school work at all 4. I have not been contacted by any of them. And I'm kind of pissed. I know for a fact at least 2 of them were hiring.
          Getting a job in high school wasn't nearly as hard for anyone I know. And the employed teenagers where I live that have jobs aren't exactly stand up people. 
          I was super paranoid at one point that the people looking at applications threw mine out after just looking at my name. Like they knew who I was and that I'm a shit person with terrible work ethic.
          
          Long story short, I can't go do anything and I have no money for college next year.

I'm gonna start this with Slender man isn't real, ok? Ok.
          
          So when I was 12 years old (this is about 5 years ago, so slender man and creepypastas were a really big thing, bigger than they are now in my opinion) I was really into the whole creepypasta scene, specifically slender man. Looking back, it kind of makes me cringe (I went as far as to say Jeff The Killer was my older brother, ew plz no) but it made sense.
          
          I was super lonely as a 12 year old, and I had unrestricted access to the internet. So I spent most of my time on the computer. When I found out slender man was a thing I was intrigued. I saw the pictures and the YouTube videos, the stories and games and all that jazz. I thought he was real, like legit. 
          
          I didn't really belong anywhere back then, I saw slender man as someone who could take you away, to somewhere you could belong, if that makes sense.
          
          I scribbled all of the 8 pages from the slender games onto paper and hung them around my room. I put one in my school binder cover as well, I thought if people saw it, they would leave me alone (I was bullied intensely in middle school.)
          
          2 years ago I moved out of the house I was living in at the time. While taking down my bedroom curtains, I saw a piece of lined paper taped to my window. When I turned it over I almost started crying and freaking out. It was one of the pages I put there 2 years prior, but I had forgotten all about them. I had taken down all the other pages around the room about a year earlier, I had just missed the one. It didn't take me long to remember that I had put it there, but it nearly gave me a heart attack.
          
          Just a little story about the dumb sh!t I did to cope as a middle schooler.

Real talk though you guys. I found a college only and hour and a half away from where I live (I thought I wouldn't find that with how specific my major is) and I'm super excited! I graduate next year and I'm so anxious to start my adult life as a college student! 75% done with high school, I won't give up now!