It’s been more than 4 years, but I’m finally back!
I miss you all so much and I haven’t written in so long. But even though I’ve been absent, I just want you all to know that as the years went by, seeing your comments on my stories flood my inbox always made me smile. Even after all of this time, my work is still leaving an impact on so many people, and the thought of that makes me feel so full.
I’ve had a lot happen to me over the years. I recovered from my initial surgery which is amazing! But I’ve also been struggling with severe anxiety. I spent a long time learning to embrace who I am and make sense of the hatred and prejudice directed towards me that has contributed to the hurt and pain so deeply engraved in my soul.
Summer of 2020 was truly a difficult time for me, for my family, for my people. And I wanted to write, I did. But I was so exhausted and angry. My heart was heavy and my soul was trembling. I was traumatized by those horrific events to the point where my body shut down and my mind numbed. I lived my entire life being Black before woman. Black before American. Black before human. And in order to cope, I retreated from reality, from anything that required me to engage emotionally, which for me, was writing.
But so much time has passed since then, and still, so much has happened. This void that I’ve been feeling, this emptiness, has been from me neglecting my voice, my writing, my poetry. I miss it dearly. I have so many emotions bottled up inside of me and the only way I can release them is through my words. So here I am. Back and better than ever.
If you’ve read this far, thank you so incredibly much. I have grown and matured so much, and the same is true for my writing. Whenever y’all have the time, please be sure to check out my new stories: Sweet Reverie and Until I Rise Again (Coming Soon!). I truly appreciate y’all
Much love,
XCrocusX