H A P P I T O T

My life as of today is not about good times, its about how I cope with pain and sufferings alone. How I get up everyday with a smile plastered in my face as if I did not cry overnight...

Maybe I’m blinded by the truth that someone still cares.

I couldn’t leave the world because of them but you keep pushing me to my limits.

I feel pain all over my body and stayed quiet. I feel pain all over my me yet I stayed quiet. And when You asked why am I keeping this to myself... well first of all did you care? Second, you’ll know cause you observe right..? Third, din’t worry it is nothingand I can mange te pain, fourth, didn’t you say that Its because of my unhealthy sleeping patterns well ask yourself why, and lastly, you’d never asked of what i felt so whats the point of telling you...?

I feel so useless, so dumb, so stupid and so fucking pathetic everyday and right now I feel like I’m near in the worst part..

I can’t explain and show how I love you, but I am certain on what I feel for you.

I do have insecurities too, you know.....

I lost all the reasons to believe that fate has it way on everything that happens in our life. 

Even when the person is happy is they really are, you know, even a White Rose has their own shadows.

Keep your friends close, and your enemy closer.
          Keep your lover close, then you’ll break up after.
          Keep your family close, then your support will grow stronger.
          But there is nothing left for you if they are not even interested looking out for you ever.