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I don't know what to do. It's like it's always my fault. I can't open up to people, they can't understand me. Even if I tell them I feel bad, I'm still the one who bears all the blame and remains inconsolable.
Am I the problem..?
All I want is some love, some nice sweet words of love... All I want is some proper consolation, why can't I even get some consolation ? Fuck, even my loved ones have never treated me as a human being, I want to put a knife in the middle of my neck and pull it down to my waist.
I just want to be loved.
I don't wanna feel guilty anymore.
But "siktiğimin hayatı benden nefret ediyor ve bana sevdiğim herhangi bir insanın samimi sevgisini bile bahşetmiyor god damn world."