xanyani.

Bitch Boys is completed, as it should've been a while ago. I am not writing anymore. 

There are always moments in time when I kind of say to myself "I'm gonna quit writing fanfiction after this chapter" or "after this book". But, I just keep finding myself crawling back to writing fanfiction. 
          
          It was never about writing to look good or writing extremely eloquently and impressing people with how pretty my language is, appealing to a specific aesthetic of writing. Rather, It was always about satisfying my fantasies, which sounds so weird, but we all have them. Fanfiction endings often felt rushed and I felt like I could rewrite them - so I decided to write my own. I was in my early teens and I felt like I could do it better. 
          
          It was like I was writing to myself. 
          
          Everything in my chapters, if you peel back a layer, you will see my thoughts and see how I feel. When I start addressing the characters past or articulating how they feel, it's kind of funny because most of the time I'm layering pieces of myself in there. 
          
          I never realised how much an author or writer, can pour themselves into something and fanfiction writing has become so eye opening. 
          
          Even though my story isn't profound or  in many ways. I feel like it's a timeline of how I feel. 
          
          When I read fanfiction, it's kind of funny to me because I often hate it when authors talk about themselves. I find it so weird and it makes it so clear that the wild wild journeys they wrote about were very much fiction. 
          
          I just wanted to express how I felt and again tell you guys how grateful I am for continually reading and messaging me. 
          
          Lately, I haven't been feeling the best, but fanfiction has always been something nice to laugh about. 
          
          Thank you guys so much. Love you. So sorry if this was gross.

It's that time in my life where I start reading star wars fsnfics again 

I'm not even going to lie. After bitch boys I'm probably going to drop fanfiction all together (probably by three end of this year) and that makes me extremely sad but also happy. 
          
          I remember when one of my favourite fanfiction writers, I think their name was "Kyunsocks", dropped their account, I was completely lost. 
          That sounds so dramatic but I really looked up to their writing and it honestly gave me the drive to improve.
           I don't think I feel as passionate as I used to and it makes me feel extremely upset. 
          But, I know that, honestly, Fanfiction has ALWAYS been about you exploring your fantasies, a world that can never be touched. 
          
          A fanfiction is a rich dream that's expanded using words and seemingly ridiculous imaginations. I have explored so much and I could never have been more grateful. Especially going into highschool I used it as an outlet for (I guess) deep uncontrolled emotions. But as I pass that phase, I realise that I can explore those desires in other places and keep writing chapters of my imagination in more "proper" outlets. 
          
          I honestly want to tell everyone to never be ashamed of writing fanfictions. A lot of famous authors started out writing fanfictions. It sounds embarassing but Its one of the best things I've ever done in my life and Ive excelled in English due to this. 
          
          Unpacking fanfictions, obsessing over character conflicts and moments, laying on your bed in the middle of the night and exploring how you could've made that story so much better - is all intellectually expansive. I hope all of you write a fanfiction, one way or another. It's a part of growing. Fanfictions are a huge part of literature and (just in general) exploring the depths of the human psyche. I know you may think I am overcomplicating things but I am not. 
          
          
          I have never been more in touch with myself. And I could not have ever cherished an experience more than this. Hopefully I'll be able to let go of my story with no regrets. 
          
          I love you guys so much  

I wish I could find those addicting fanfictions again. Th ones in 2016 that were so trashy felt so right. I wish I was younger and I could savour how amazing fanfictions were to me. 

Hey guys, 
          
          I just want to say that interacting with you guys and just seeing how you guys are reacting to my books really makes my day. 
          
          For me, fanfictions, as stupid as it may seem, always filled my day with such excitement and drama and just comedic stupidity that I really couldn't help but enjoy. So when I see people really enjoying my book like that, perhaps in a similar way, it really does make me happy. 
          
          I know how impactful fanfictions can be even though they are just fanfictions. And I really just want to tell you guys that it's really  touching that this stupid little story I made in my drafts can be actually enjoyable and entertaining to others. No matter how "dumb" fanfictions may seem, they are still a group of literature that people can enjoy and indulge in scandalously, the most. 
          
          I remember days and nights where I would just feel like complete shit. But then I'd completely binge the shit out of a fanfiction and that would ultimately make me feel amazing and great. 
          
          The emotions, ridiculous memories and high you get off of fanfictions is so underrated and I don't see many people actually talking about it. But, I just really wanted to express how happy and overall just grateful I am that people place time, out of their busy days, to read this story. 
          
          I hope you guys have a wonderful day, hopefully bingeing fanfictions like fucking crazy. 
          
          

Guys tell me if you want to read one of my older fanfictions. It's quit funny tbh  not because of deliberate humour, but just the writing itself. Im not going to say too much about it tho cos I want the surprise 

Hello I really love your stories and how you write them~~~and I think you are a really great writer :)

Fantasia(whole album, liked chaotic the most), Sour Candy, Candy, Mayday, Stay Tonight - are all very good songs, I'm very happy with the music being released. 
          Though Baekhyun's Delight album(favourite song is poppin') fucking killed and buried me. 

Hi love, I really love your story~ Hope you can update soon! Lovelots❤️
          
          – Luna