Follow up: I'm sill alive... Just don't have a good environment to spark creation. I've decided to avoid becoming active in the G/T community. Whenever it seems peaceful, someone always comes in to ruin it. It's either a new member making the community weird, a known member admitting their true thoughts and becoming a villain, or some sort of trauma that suppresses my own because I had it easy. I bottle everything because I compare myself to others. I set expectations for myself that I am never able to reach.
If I ever join a community, I will just linger there to look at art or read good stories. I don't need the drama
And if I ever set another goal, I WILL keep up with it. If I make a promise, I intend to keep that promise as long as I live. So if I don't promise a story, you can expect it to be late to the due date, but it will still be in the works.
I'm sorry to have disappointed all of my followers with previous hype of all my stories. I'm going through it. Maybe not as bad as you, but it's still there. I was told that this was a valid way to feel, but I resent it. One day, I will come back to writing, but today is the day I mark my hiatus. I haven't touched Wattpad since mid-2024. During that time, my depression, anxiety, paranoia, and lack of confidence have been harassing me and it just doesn't stop. I wanted to build an empire with my stories, but that'll have to wait until I actually have the time and motivation (I'm completely dry of it). For now, goodbye Wattpad (account will remain because I do intend to return)
When I come back, I hope to see all of you still in my follower list. Thank you for sticking with me through all of my failed promises, and I'm sorry.