i feel dead. empty? all my confidence about my body and my face and everything i do...its all so disgusting and i wish i could rip all the ugliness off. ive been feeling like this for god who knows how long. ive been pretending and faking and honestly everything that comes my way is just a perfect distraction for me to forget about it. all the friends that i love and who cares about me hopefully, what would they think of this? what would I say if they see signs— im literally crying and I have hw right in front of me. none of you are gonna see this anyway so ig ill let everything out on here for now...
