Peyton

Someone tell me. Do ppl actually read these. Cause if I'm being honest I feel... Invisible. But further more let me spit out something on my mind.
          
          Asian-fishing. If you don't know what that is let me explain, even tho I'm sure most know. It's when a different race tried to look Asian. Pretty much it. But what about when the Asian community, use makeup to look white. I just saw a video of a Asian girl using makeup, and she actually looked American. Like a full LA white girl American. And everyone supported her. But how is this different from Asian-fishing. It's clearly just the opposite. When Ariana grande was accused of Asian-fishing she got a ton of hate, but no one ever talks about it cause she has so many fans. All she did was make her eyes look smaller. I do that, cause I have big eyes. Extremely large eyes, I look like I have a filter on my face, all the time. So I use makeup to make them appear smaller so ppl don't call me bug eyes. But someone told me I looked Asian even tho it was all just my overthinking that ppl at my new school would bully me for my eyes. But I stopped cause I was Asian-fishing, even tho I had full dreams of ripping my eyes out cause I hate them so much. But when an Asian woman does makeup to look American she gets praised. I'm confused.

I HATE THE FACT THAT THE SUMMER I TURNED PRETTY MAKES ME SO HAPPY

I haven't said something in a long time so.... Hi. The only new thing that I've got recently was a new tapestry. It has mushrooms on it.

If and I swear to God! 
          If I see one more Fluff of Sally X Larry
          I will kill!!
          They are brothers!!! They are step-siblings!!!!!!
          THEIR PARENTS GET MARRIED!!!! PLEASE STOP THIS!(⁠ノ⁠｀⁠Д⁠´⁠)⁠ノ⁠彡⁠┻⁠━⁠┻    (⁠눈⁠‸⁠눈⁠)

Happy New Years!!! 〜⁠(⁠꒪⁠꒳⁠꒪⁠)⁠〜
          I'm already going through my Sally Face era. I stopped liking Sally Face and moved on to Boyfriend, John Doe, etc. But I was watching TikTok and a Sally Face video popped up. I went to YouTube and watch some videos. AND BOOM!!! I was invested again!!! But who cares.
          
          Byeee (⁠ ⁠/⁠^⁠ω⁠^⁠)⁠/⁠♪⁠♪

I'm single and dying from it. Balling my eyes out.༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ

I have a gf....her name is serenity but she goes by ghost. She is amazing and the best. I LOVE HER SO MUCHHHHHHH❣️❣️❣️❣️

I liked this person named Zane. Turns out he's homophobic. He scared of queer people and there for he doesn't support. He was flirting with me and when I told him I was Pansexual he asked if I liked girls. I said yes and he walked away. His friend Steven came up and told me and I started talking to Steve. He gave me a pet name and now our relationship is us just flirting back and forth. 
          
          Well today Zane apologies for walking away and said he thought I was cute and he really wanted to get to know me. Steven heard and Steven put his arm around me and walked me to my next class away from Zane. He kissed my cheek then said see you next period. I walked into class with almost every girl staring at me cause Steven never talks to girl and is hardly sweet. However when people started asking if we were dating I couldn't tell them cause I don't know. He Avoided me last period and I couldn't ask him. 

I can't sleep so I'm gonna be real tired for gym...might skip(⁠ ⁠╹⁠▽⁠╹⁠ ⁠)

Friday I got in trouble at school.
          I'm very good in school and don't tend to cause scenes when I get in trouble but what my sub gym teacher was doing was so messed up. My gym teacher got COVID so he's out for 2 weeks and I had a female gym teacher who was very fit and loved to show it off. I'm chubby. I'm not to over weight. I also have a pearl shaped body which does help with my chub. I was trying my best at doing the sit ups but I was clearly struggling. She told me to stand up and I did she also told this other girl who was also struggling to stand up. She told the other girl she was fat and that she would never find someone who loves her, and that she would never change cause she's lazy. She then told the girl to run and the girl actually listened.... I knew I was next... She then asked me if I have abs. I said no and she pulled her shirt up enough to show off her abs, she said I would never be like her and to go run with the other girl. I sat down. She turned around and said "I told you to go run! Now go!" I said no. And told her to shut up and stop being a b*tch. Everyone had stopped what they were doing by then and the gym teacher asked if I ever wanted to look like her. I said yes and she then said the 3 words I hate the most "practice makes perfect". I told to stfu and she looked shocked. I said "practice doesn't make perfect! Practice makes improvement!". I then told her she wasn't perfect and that she was just skinny with abs. That there were people out there more fit then her and could put her to shame. People started clapping and she walked out of the gym. She came back with the principal. I explained everything and so did some other kids and I got in trouble! I GOT IN TROUBLE! She wasn't fired or anything. But I got a 3 day suspension and detention for a week. My older sister said she wasn't mad at me but the school. This is at my new school too.