hey. i'm sorry about what i posted before, i didn't mean it and i was speaking out of frustration. i'm not gonna give myself excuses, what i said was bad and i honestly said it so that it would hurt you like i was hurt, and it's been long enough since then that i can reflect and look back, that was obviously not a smart decision. i'm so sorry and i hope you can forgive me, because i don't want to lose you as a friend. it's fine of you don't and you don't wanna be friends bc what i said was pretty bad. through all of this, i love you a lot and that's the only reason i was mad. i guess i felt betrayed because we'd been friends for so long and you kind of just left, but i completely understand your circumstances and i'm done dwelling on the past. please consider what i've said, i respect and value you as a friend and i don't want to lose that.