@dutroux thanks, and your perspective definitely makes me feel a lot better about it.. I've been tempted to self harm for a couple of years now, just to take my inner pain away a little bit, but I didn't think I ever would. it's like recently I've been going over the edge and the crazy thing is- when I first did it- it felt.. reassuring? I don't think I can exactly explain how I felt then. but thank you.. I thought I would be alone through this seeming as though I can't talk to anyone about this. even if the only person who is helping me is through a wattpad message.