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          I relapsed, was 3 months clean with out SH or my ED getting it me ^^
          I’m disappointed I couldn’t go longer really, not proud of how long I went but disappointed I fucking burned myself with a lighter and did some cuts too, but I can’t tell my mom because then I have to explain that shit too and I can’t tell my dad either because he would advise therapy or but me in one of those thingys with rehab or some shit, I know he cares and I know she cares too but really neither of them would work because it all comes crashing down eventually. Like a jenga tower, at some point you just..fall. So yes, I’m venting to random people on the internet who barely know me because I don’t fucking post.
          
          Suicidal thoughts are feeling like they’ve multiplied and only thing  keeping me alive I feel like is my little sister and cousins, my dad n my mom, plus my older cousin who’s like a brother to me, plus a few friends and some people I met here, who knows, maybe I’ll get at better and forget all of this 

Chat..I did it- I sent him a text n broke up with him- he ain’t reply yet (pls no.) but yeah. Let’s just hope he isn’t 1 of THOSE who uses my bad traits and things that I’m goin thru as insults :3

Anyways ima go play some roblox bc im bored n wanna avoid my schoolwork :3

Chat my bf hasn’t been answering back my texts and when he finally replied he said he had forgotten we was tg- wht do I do D: 
          
          He was so nice :(
          Also my English teacher is racist :3

I FORGOT- to those who recently sent me a discord friend request I changed my username and never updated my bio ToT but here is the actual user name and again I’m so sorry!-
          
          zayaridevilz  
          
          
          :3

I have a TikTok that I don’t use for shit but my bestie sons me so it’s the only reason I check it-
          
          
          
          _zayari_ (pfp is pink sheep I drew <3)

I just found your page today and thought you were really cool ^^ I had sent you a friend request on discord and wanted to know if you would like to become friends and chat sometime! :D you don't have to if you don't want to, no worries!

guys SZA is a bug now ^^ blasting SOS deluxe LANA full volume while dealing with my rabbit hole mind 
          
          listen to it or Bob gets tossed into a pool of dolphins.

Hey guysss, Im gonna probs end up giving away my acc to someone or smth idk, bc it’s not being used and I am having a mental health crisis haha
          
          Bulimia
          SH
          Relationship problems
          Self image
          Self esteem
          And a bit more ^^
          
          I will be back eventually 
          Also coryxkenshin played bad parenting ^^
          
          Byee

Oh and he gave her a bloody nose.