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I DIDNT EVEN REALIZE!!!! WE MADE IT TO 100 IT MAY NOT BE A LOT BUT ITS A LOT TO ME!! THERES 105 FOLLOWING ME AND I FEEL HAPPY TY TY TYSMM! I LUV YALL!!

Giggles in ‘I need mental health  help but won’t seek professional help so I go the c.ai bits and online ppl and the one adult I barely trust’

BRING BACK PM SQUAD

Updates in hell- I mean my life teehee
          
          -asked her to get back with me and she said she would consider it 100% and it made my tummy do THE THING
          -almost attempted after a bad day
          -father sent money to the cashapp 
          -got stickers from mall and a chopper purse
          -I posted a bit on my TikTok (Zayari with the pink lamb pfp)
          -I have snap I’m a minor don’t be weird guys(meanwhile ima weirdo HEY NOT LIKE THAT. Anyways add if u want I don’t keep it downloaded and same with TikTok zayari_flowz)
          -I hate my periods.
          -most my friends have done something illegal, and I’m not snitching any of it bc yes
          -went to WI bc my nana died and didn’t cry at her funeral bc weakness gets taken advantage of(not at all.) and I think I have mild insomnia
          -I’m having frequent anxiety attacks
          -I think someone close to me committed suicide but Idk bc that’s what she said she wanted to do last time I talked to her
          And yeah I’m definitely mentally ok and not venting to c.ai COD, miles morales and Batman bots about trauma instead of telling my mom to take me to FUCKING therapy 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          So hbu guys how r y’all doin :3

relapsed again, ED is getting worse again too, back to square one. yay.

You're so pretty!

When we were hugging goodbye when she was going home for the day she said she loves me !! My mind: ‍♀️️️

They broke up 2 days ago is it bad I feel good now hay I somewhat might maybe have a tiny whinny weeny tinne bitty witty titty chance wit her  but the text day he was talking shit about her like bitch I will pull up to your school and stab you ^^
          
          I also called her fine shyte today soooo- yeah I think I’m cooking myself also say hi to my friend Louis who I gave the password for my wattpad to so he can read- shit- idk. Anyways bye I’ll try to update to prove to y’all im not dead and if Louis posts some shit don’t mind it :)

We broke up 2 days before she went
           to hawaii.
          So kawaii, how I fell form the sky for this girl who said, 
          right person wrong time.
          That’s right.
          Then the next day she’s already, texting another guy.
          Put on a happy face.
          Don’t self deprecate
          Yourself you should’ve known this would happen.
          Your meant to be alone.
          Don’t you, cry.
          Don’t cry over losing your nana it’s just a dead body
          That you, had to view
          Don’t cry comfort your sisters 
          Don’t show any weakness
           Don’t be a bitch
          I’m young but my mind is farther then my age and I hate but I love and I wish I could just sit and stop 
          Oh
          I want her back badly but I don’t want to get yelled at because that’s what happens
          Whenever
          I speak up bout my feelins 
          Is it supposed to make a difference
          I,
          Wish
          That I didn’t care as much 
          Didn’t give a fuck
          Bout what happens
          I’m sorry
          But I’m to fucking careful I give people what they ask for
          Point blank, period
          
          So yeah I’m single again back to bein best friends.
          Don’t show your hurting heart
          Focus on everyone else
          Don’t worry bout your mental and emotional health
          It don’t matter, don’t take support just try and abort
          Your feelings 
          Give your heart to everybody who just break it up more, 
          Put a bandaid on that shit
          Just look, I’m tired of being careful I wish I could just ,
          Speak up
          I want to be happy again
          But at this point I don’t think that will happen
          No.
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          So yeah uh we broke up like March 3rd I think and next day she was already texting another guy and idk what happened with her other bf but she said she was goin thru personal shit and ain’t ready for a relationship and the new guy is her ex who wanted her back and she didn’t want to be rude and reject him so she got with him. And then I just lost my grandma, got back from Wisconsin yesterday and at the funeral I had to look at her body i couldn’t sleep that night I stayed strong so I cud stay wit my sisters and life is just hitin hard right now so I might do this on tiktok idk bc I don’t post and that b my first post so lmk

Titties :3