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Alright, it’s gotten to the point where I no longer have control over what’s going on with my writing, I was trying to create schedule after schedule after schedule in order to adjust with how life was flowing but I think I give up trying. I can’t fix my own problems and I’ve noticed this through trying to fix everything going on with me time and time again and I just fuck it up. I like writing, I do like I love the art of it all because it’s amazing what we can create. But the drive is gone, it’s not even dwindling or anything it’s just a dead light. And I don’t think I have the energy to turn this shit back on, I unfortunately became one of the things I hate the most. A hope giver, so I apologize to all I’ve disappointed and let down. It seems like a curse of mine and I’m tired of doing it repeatedly to no end, so I’ll be deceased until further notice. I’m not gonna sit here and lie to y’all I don’t think I’m coming back, I just keep doing the same shit and it’s embarrassing. I’ve been working like a mad man thanks to my new job, I get home late after midnight and I hibernate until I get up and ready for work. Like the cycle is becoming more and more draining and I keep adding onto it with trying to find time to write. But I’m not gonna rant any longer I just wanted to apologize because I think deep down I already knew I quit but I was too stubborn to admit it. So I’ll try get up with all of you who have been trying to get in contact with me, again I’m sorry but I’m trying to make amends. It’s been a really nice journey, but I think this is farewell for real this time. Love you all ✌