Maddie

I'm looking back at my old books and I'm geninely cringing,...

I'm not going to be continuing this channel. I'm going to make a new one with fresh Ideas because my fpy and book making us all over the place. Once I release a chapter of my new book then I will send the user. Thank you all so much for following me and I'm so sorry all of these stories will forever remain, unfinished. :(

I am in SA! I will try to get ya'll a couple more chapters!

Sorry I have forgotten all about this NGl but I'm kinda back! Only until the new year though because my school is a pain in my ass and starts on the 2ND OF JANUARY ONE DAY AFTER NEW YEARS!! IWJRWIUTBIWU #Schoolnotpog

MORNING YOU BEATIFUL VIEWERS!

don't even get me started on racism I am proudly a coloured person and I get treated like trash I'm in Dubai where most people are Emirati here Emirati people are native to this country, and I get treated like a piece of crap man! And my mom she watched this video one day that was of when like the when a black person won an award and the person who's announcing it is a black person and they were just like so supportive! One of them just like screamed 'yes my black queen!' and my mom said 'sometimes I just want to be a part of like the black community to be like that's my people' and I feel that I feel her. And I am very sorry to all the innocent white people who treat everyone else as they as they treat you but I am from South Africa and we had something called apartheid where black and coloured people were enslaved for years, they got less education had to get jobs at the early age and could only get certain jobs mind you. While the white people got 80% of the equity of the country and us black and coloured people got only in my twenty percent and the country was 90% black and or coloured people like I don't understand how this came through and I'm so glad that everyone is getting treated equally in South Africa or most people at least... I don't understand why there is racism because everyone is a human being everyone has emotions and feelings and a living and breathing heart and brain I and skin color doesn't make you any different of anyone else in this earth world universe I just went on an entire spiral very sorry that you guys had to read this.
          Have a good day... more crazy spirals tmr <3

I was reading a new story and at the A/N it said 'I miss the good old days ya know? When we didn't worry about anything. When life was happy' And that really really spoke to me. Like every day we wake up hoping today will be better than yesterday, some of us get pestered about school and shit but I now realise how hard everything is. Especially in this day and age... Like our parents just tell us about how they got bullied or like stuff like that but in this day and age someone can push you like accidentally and then don't say sorry about it And you can overthink it into something that could relapse your entire life so I don't think parents understand how hard life is in this era they grew up in a different kind of era and I'm not saying that their trauma or pain that they went through is not as bad as ours but I'm saying that they don't realize how much hurt that we are feeling every day and I just I there's audio that goes like 'kids are getting tired of school' or something like that and it's freaking true you have to wake up every day at like 6 or 7am just to get ready for school to learn about somethings you need to learn in your life but it's tiring okay?! It's emotionally draining especially for someone who has gone through trauma like myself and have to put on a fake smile to not get everyone to worry about you, and some people express their emotion at school get called in attention seeker if you- if you fail a test then you'll get made fun of, if you have different opinions than you're got bullied. I cried at school I never cry at school and these days you just have to suck it up and deal with it later when no one's watching like most of us cry ourselves to sleep. I am a minor I am under the age of 18 and I am going through so much pain, and I don't even I'm not even in college yet. life is hard man! I'm not doing this so I can get attention or whatever you're all doing well and doing mentally well I don't know how to feel right now okay bye

A new story is coming out 5pm today! And I have a Loh in my drafts do you want me to post it?  I also want to make a Divergants Story eventually if you don't know what divergent is go watch the movie on Disney + or Netflix! Its amazing.