Dear myself, you're not the reason all the bad things happen in this world. This is why the word 'test' and 'coincidence' are exist. And please, don't repeat the same mistake. You shall know the consequences yet you still did the same thing over and over. Not really upset but I don't want seeing myself being in the same dark place, especially when new book of your life is gonna be opened. I want you to know that I love you, and no matter what people said to you, whether good or bad things, it's not your fault, so don't add more burdens on yourself, little you did know you're a human, and it's normal to make mistakes.