YangScarletUwU

Not me writing 500 words out but then having to delete them after realizing it has not point?
          	That sucked the soul out of me faster than I could suck water out of my straw.

YangScarletUwU

I always wondered why some people tend to separate their hobbies from business because I do the same. I don't want to be earning or doing something for money. I mean, yes, it would be awesome to have money. However, I think it takes the fun out of it. It shift my focus from the process, to the goals instead. I don't like it.
          
          Then, I came across incentive theory and how there are two types of motivation - extrinsic and intrinsic. The incentive theory states that people are more likely to perform more of an action that has an external reward (extrinsic motivation). In contrast, intrinsic motivation is focused on personal preferences or satisfaction; a person does something for the mere sake of doing it.  Now here's the connection. When you apply extrinsic motivation to an activity that an individual finds initially satisfying, the intrinsic motivation lowers. Therefore, you slowly become dependent on the rewards. So when you no longer get the rewards... you no longer have the motivation that you once found personally fun.
          
          Wew.

YangScarletUwU

What if someone told you that you that no one has it all figured out? No one knows exactly knows what they are doing or what they are going to do. The average life span of a human is 65 years. That's all we got. Everything we think we are and had, we leave within that time. So why do I get the urge that I have to know where I have to go in my 20s, and know how to get there? Why can't I just live?