Perhaps I am tired ..
I am where I wanted to be a year ago but I don't feel it ..
I lost my passion ..
I am not as hardworking as I was a year ago..
I am not even smarter enough ..
I feel like I am losing myself , my personality everyday that I don't recognize myself anymore..
A lot had changed, my life, my present, my personality , my daily routine ..
I am tired of pretending to be happy while a lot is going on in my head ..
And I am tired of pretending to be perfect as well ..
I am not that kind and polite girl that everyone sees, But I really want to be so ..
I am not being dramatic, it's just that I am tired and I want to say this ..
Because maybe, saying it will makes things better ..
Or maybe because saying this will help me find the Old Hanane again ..
I am not asking for help as well because I believe No one can help you but Allah and yourself ..
And also, I don't know why I am writing this but I think it's just to come to it later when things get better inshallah and laugh at how Silly and dramatic I was..
In conclusion , it's time to look for a better me, It's time to change ..