I’m sorry I wasn’t enough
I don’t think I can live in so much pain anymore
I’m so goddamn sorry I wasn’t enough for you to stay
Oh god no
Maybe if I was prettier
By stoping my breathing
Maybe if I was smarter
By making my blood stop flowing
Maybe if I was perfect
By ceasing to live
You wouldn’t have left me
I need to let go but I’m in so much pain
I. Can’t. Let. Go. Please, just end it.
I wish I could just stab my heart until it stops beating
I need this unending pain to stop
Until I stop feeling
Maybe if I died I could stop feeling this unbelievable pain
I just wanna die before it gets worse
Every day for years has been getting worse and worse
I can’t take the panic attacks
The godamn adhd
The sorrow
My family, I’m so sorry I couldn’t be enough
To maelin bloom,
I know you never think of me like I think of you everyday
You’ll never love me
Not like I oh so deeply loved you
I’m so sorry I wasn’t enough
I wish I was
Maybe if I died that would be enough for you
Maybe then you’ll finally smile
I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry.
Please don’t forget me
Oh god please don’t forget me
I’m so sorry, please
Don’t forget anything about me please, I’m so sorry
I know you broke me
I know you hate me
I know your better off without me
But please don’t forget how I gave you my heart
And how you smashed it apart
If this really is my final goodbye, I just need to say thank you
Thank you to those who tried to help, who tried to fix me before realizing how unfixable I truly am.
Please, don’t follow in my footsteps
There is beauty in your life
Your worth everything
If I really do go through with killing myself, and this is my true last goodbye, please smile
Fix this world, end racism, end homophobia, end transphobia, end climate change.
I believe you can change the world and make it beautiful
If I could wish for one thing, it would be for nobody to suffer, for nobody to hurt. I know others have it worse than me and I’m selfish.
My time is up,goodbye
