Hey guys... While im on my hiatus.. I've thinking of negative thoughts and im not haply and bubbly anymore.. (I'm usually always happy and smiley, but not the past few weeks) I've been thinking negative thoughts like, My parents don't love me. And I've been thinking of killing methods (Sui*ide) and i also feel like i don't deserve to have high honors (which is the most highest rank in our school) and i also feel like i don't deserve my awards (best in math, epp, mapeh) and. I cry evernight or when ever my mom shouts at me (im soft-hearted) and also i go to the bathroom to cry. And also someone confessed that they have a crush on me. (i feel like i don't deserve someone to have a crush on me. I don't deserve their heart that likes me. People usually like me because i have a bubbly personality. And i feel like the one that has a crush on me wouldn't like me anymore if he find out i have a sad heart and negative mind... Im sorry for being dramatic. But i really just wanted to let my feelings out,it kinda made me feel better, when i let out what i felt. Im sorry for wasting your time :), enjoy the rest of your day. Im sorry if this made you sad :(( i didn't mean it. Anyways thank you for Understanding and still here even when i have a sad and soft hearted heart a negative mind, and i hope you will never experience what i have been going through. You don't deserve it. But i think i do deserve all this pain. I'm thankful for all my readers. Im sorry again if im being too dramatic and soft hearted, i really am sorry for wasting your time and making you sad (if you felt sad while reading what i felt). Thank you for listening. I love you guys. Hope you understand that i need a break :)
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