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I think I’m just gonna text him and hope for the best lowkey

PT 2. Anyways, I’ve been really missing him lately bc we haven’t talked since January and I’ve come to the terms that I need him in my life, even as just friends, I just need my best friend again. Also, we keep making eye contact at school and stuff and I feel like he misses me too. I’ve thought about reaching out to him but I’m scared of the outcome. I’ve been really considering it this weekend bc this upcoming week is spring break so at least if he says he hates my guts I’ll have a week to recover lol. 
          
          I have concocted a message to send to him and I kinda need y’all’s advice if I should bother or not. Here’s the message: 
          
          Hey, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking, and I realized how much I miss you. I didn’t realize how much space you took up in my life until you weren’t there anymore. I miss you, not just what we were, but you as a person, the one I could talk to about anything. You seriously were my best friend. I feel more ready and more clear about things than I did back then. I understand if you don’t feel the same way anymore, but I needed to be honest about how I feel.
          
          Please, please, please share any advice you have for this random stranger on the internet, thank you for your time <333

PT 1. Hey guys so I need to rant. But before I start, I know this is a long message but I really need some advice and you’ll see what I need advice about it you read the whole thing so please, please, please help this random stranger. Last July, my best guy friend and I became boyfriend and girlfriend. Which, before that, we weren’t really just friends, yk? Like we just had this dynamic, heck we even talked all day every do a whole year before becoming a couple, idk how else to explain it.  Anyways, he was my first boyfriend, I never had a talking stage or anything, and in January I started worrying about things, like I was starting to think “am I really ready for something long term like this” and I pretty much just became really scared for the future and stuff. I ended up breaking up with him and recently it’s really been taking a toll on me. I lost my best friend. With him I could talk about anything. I struggle with a lot of anxiety and I’m constantly worried that my friends hate me and I just feel like I’m nobody’s first choice but with him I felt like I was somebody’s first choice and he was without a doubt mine too. When I was feeling sad and alone, he would be the one I would go to bc I never worried that he secretly hated me like I do with others. 

I need someone to write the most mind boggling beautiful gorgeous fantastic breathtaking fanfic abt Mike and El finding eachother again ASAP. Pls I'm desperate I need the closure 

Stranger things season 5 so far is literally so ✨ (I can't even think of a good adjective to describe it). I had to take a break to process just how amazing it is. Like I'm literally so emotional with it being the last season and everything.

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