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I don't usually watch yt content of skz or ateez because I'm busy, but I feel like i want to stop stanning skz sometimes, now maybe. It's so childish too, cause it's because of shipping, and I just saw a reel. Han saying "Minho hyung, hold my hand" in the end of the song and yes, I can't go between people, especially who r idols and older than me and I'm only their fan. I ship idols too, but this shipping on Instagram or yt is getting out of hand.
Don't get to me saying "you ship too, you write fast too" yes I do write ffs, I do write woosan but I always had this uncomfortable feeling in me whenever I see a couple at school, whether they match or not. I just feel so uncomfortable in my own skin whenever they act lovey dovey, and it's my problem, yes, I get it. Idk what difference it makes between me shipping and others shipping, maybe because I do it because I don't feel lonely and feel something other than this emptiness 24/7. Because I feel warm and comforted when I write a scenario with them but ofcourse they're fictional characters in the story. Not real life events or characters, ykwim? Maybe it's the purpose people do it for, maybe they like to push it on ur face saying "look! They act gay! They look like dating! They kissed!" I don't fucking care and it bothers me.