Ynandtheirsimps

I'm thinking about ending it. I don't know if I can do it anymore. I don't have motivation anymore.
          	
          	I started this account when I was 15 and now I'm turning 20 this year. I loved being on here but the world seems to be more dim now. I loved the world but all I can see is the problems in it.
          	
          	I can't post anything in my art book because all of my work that I prided myself on is dead. Art is dead. Art is who I am. I want to be dead. I'll be dead.
          	
          	I don't think I have any followers who read these so if you see this, thanks for checking in. I want to leave this world but I'm still afraid of death. Maybe this is just another negative thought I'm having again. After the 3rd time, I think the world still wants me here. But I don't know what to do here.

Ynandtheirsimps

I'm thinking about ending it. I don't know if I can do it anymore. I don't have motivation anymore.
          
          I started this account when I was 15 and now I'm turning 20 this year. I loved being on here but the world seems to be more dim now. I loved the world but all I can see is the problems in it.
          
          I can't post anything in my art book because all of my work that I prided myself on is dead. Art is dead. Art is who I am. I want to be dead. I'll be dead.
          
          I don't think I have any followers who read these so if you see this, thanks for checking in. I want to leave this world but I'm still afraid of death. Maybe this is just another negative thought I'm having again. After the 3rd time, I think the world still wants me here. But I don't know what to do here.

AngelOfMichaelis

Hello lovely!! Hope you're well. I just wanted to clarify if I could have permission to showcase the art you've done for GF in the epilogue I'm in the middle of drafting? It's totally cool if you'd prefer I didn't, I still plan to mention and thank you, of course, but I didn't wanna just put the photos in without consent!!

Ynandtheirsimps

@AngelOfMichaelis I keep on thinking about you. It hurts everyday. It feels like I caused it. Just ten minutes after I've replied, your next post wrote how you couldn't handle it anymore. I don't know what to do. Your writing was my muse and now I don't know what to do. What can I do? Art has become a chore for me and I can barely lift a pencil without thinking of the art I made for you. I'm so angry but not at you. I feel some fault that I caused this but I have to persuade myself to believe it's not true. I don't think I've enjoyed living as much anymore. Your words were a thread and now I feel like I have to cut it. So much has happened since you've left, but I'm starting to find it useless to write this message anymore, knowing that it won't reach you. I miss you.
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AngelOfMichaelis

@Ynandtheirsimps I totally understand!! Take as much time as you need to respond! I'm so privileged and grateful to have a reader such as yourself. You're an incredible artist and I burst into tears more than once when seeing the artwork you had done for GF and hearing your kind words. It's hard to express just how much it means over words on a screen but I want you to know you hold such a place in my heart and I truly hope you do well in whatever situation you're in. It's certainly bittersweet after so many years of writing and it's such a strange time for me but...I'm just so infinitely happy and prideful to have met and spoken to people like you who praise my book so highly, beyond what I deserve. I couldn't thank you enough. Hope you're well and thank you for being kind enough to permit me!
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Ynandtheirsimps

@AngelOfMichaelis OFC!! Sorry for the late reply, but the power went out for a couple of days where I live which wasn't ideal, but it's up now! I'm so glad that that I got to fall in love with a book such as yours, bringing my art back to life and helping it improve along the way. Sad that our journey has come to end, but that doesn't mean this is the last piece of art to come, besides the upcoming animatic lol
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Ynandtheirsimps

At this point I'm like Tomie by Junji Ito from how much I've been reappearing.
          
          So I changed my account's design after all this time since October of 2021 (that's not even that long actually) because for a while I've been really into Junji Ito's stories. If you've known this already or not, I'm very fragile so I broke my leg a little while back, currently in the healing phase. Not much has happened besides family issues and my social anxiety, but other than that things have been good.
          
          I went camping two days ago and just came back, some fat raccoons ate my food while I was asleep ♡♡
          
          But with all things aside, I've been getting the help I need, both physically and mentally. I can only hope you guys get the sleep you need, and that luck will come your way eventually.
          
          Love, Mai ♡

AngelOfMichaelis

@Ynandtheirsimps So happy your doing better and that things have been well. Missed ya a ton!
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Ynandtheirsimps

so im alive ♡
          
          I've been taking care of myself, gettin therapy, and eating healthy.
          
          It's been a long long break, but I'm more better than I've ever been.
          
          My life has always been horrible, if you've seen my comments on a book that I love, God's Favorite. I mean, I relate to the main character which is a very high red flag!
          
          I can actually walk without a limp since I got in a car incident a while back, which I'm thankful for because life was annoying with it.
          
          My cat is healthy and adorable as always.
          
          What I'm trying to say is that I'm better now and have gotten my life back in track.
          
          I'll try to come back to Wattpad as much as I can,  since it was really a joy being on here before my mental health break.
          
          Other than that, make sure you take care of yourselves and live life to the fullest, because I finally did it and can breathe without a problem.
          
          Much loves, Mai ♡

AngelOfMichaelis

I'm happy to hear your healing, you deserve so much.
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AngelOfMichaelis

@Ynandtheirsimps Aw Mai I'm sorry to hear this, your a very kind person who brings a lot of light into my life with your support and I'm sorry you haven't been shining so bright yourself. I'm glad you've taken some time for yourself and if you ever need to vent or you just want a freind, shoot me a text. There's always a place for you on my account and we'll all be waiting if you want to return. Sending you so much love. ♡
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