Yorium

Something bad happened at school again and it made me realize how badly my mental health has spiraled. It's okay though since it was just a false alarm but it still scared me badly. I'm not sure I'm in the best mental mindset right now.

It's my birthday today. I feel pretty bummed out. I had a lot of work for all my classes and I couldn't finish my homework because as soon as I got home, I had to take pictures, set up decorations, go out to get my cake (the place we usually get it didn't have any so I had to get a very small one meant for one person), and do my daily reading. I barely had time to even start my homework before we went out to eat and my family was being super loud and I think I was being overstimulated. I accidentally made my mom upset and now I feel terrible.

I've come to terms with myself that I am scared of dogs. 
          
          My school has a few therapy dogs since last year and it wasn't until recently that someone pointed out to me that whenever one gets too close, I speed up to walk away or use someone as a shield. My neighbor also has this little dog that likes to visit us and according to my sibling, I always look so uncomfortable and freaked out whenever it's around.

I found my Sebek plushie!(⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠) School wasn't the best today but it got better after I got home and my mom surprised me with a Leona plushie she bought for me. I'm so happy now(⁠*⁠´⁠ω⁠｀⁠*⁠)

I lost my sebek plushie at school last week and I am on the verge of crashing out

Happy birthday me. I was originally gonna start writing the chapters for my fics as a motivational gift to myself, but they're making me cook. Hooray me for being able to live this far. It's an accomplishment.