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Hey friend!!!
          I have just published first 10 chapters of my first book "BLESSED".
          Please check my work once. And if you like it then do vote/comment. 
          Show some love
          Thanks.
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/274015024?utm_source=android&utm_medium=whatsapp&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=irrisss_&wp_originator=yWKKdsVhO2bglY8XFz%2F73bysi3APorBjwMCqKgKOrxA0%2BIL0NBN%2FZg5TnrXd6TVfbCqPdGgT%2BGS93HGBtqmEUk0Jtzg8p3eT%2FYlXzKKblND5gb7rolD6f03dsh6XaWrD

@RzMxonJi again left jokhj7gfr6ukookmm.. Whyyyy????? 

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I think soon ill start writing... My feelings 
          And maybe a story too 

Hehe so i had thought that today i won't cry but guess what again i did cry.....idk why i always expect so much from everyone yeah i know it's my fault i shouldn't expect anything from anyone else..even i myself never reach upto my expections...so Today's my 18th birthday woah i was so excited that ill turn an adult now....as previous birthdays this birthday is also simple i did nothing for the whole day..i thought ill study today but ky procrastinating self didn't allow me to do something productive tho i started my day  with a positive energy but now again im all said ...ahhh such  a  crybaby i am :'(
          I just wish one day ill celebrate my day in the best way i want. ╥﹏╥
          I don't like parties and all i just like unique and sweet wishes and like small surprises and all so Let's hope ill get all that one day 
          For now the day is almost over.. So ill still try to make my day a bit productive heheಥ‿ಥ 
          Why these tears love me sm 
          I want a best friend ಥ‿ಥ
          Or someone who will love me the most and will make me special on my special day
          Happy Birthday to me. 
          I wish myself a great future... I hope I'll never give up and will always keep trying. 
          Yayy me!! 

Continuation..... 
           I know i still have time still i can do something but i don't have any motivation to do anything........ School friends, i have kind of stopped talking to them now i don't like their company... I have some online friends..... I got one best friend but later i got to know that.. That person just played with my feelings that person faked his identity.. I was so happy talking to that person..i was so happy that yes finally i have one best friend now.. One real best friend.... He left me .. After that im not able to trust anyone..... Im not giving that much time to my family ,to my friends , to studies..... I still have very good friends. But somewhere i feel like no one understands me, i have many people around me but i feel very lonely ..... Whenever i start caring about myself i can't say the rest of the line............. See like my situation my words are also messed up
          I had oone really close friend irl..  idk how he started having feelings for me after that things started getting really awkward now i have lost that friend also ..... Im tried of loosing everything.. I don't want to loose anyone or anything now.. But how... 
          My parents and me myself have so many expections from me....... I will disappoint everyone
          I really want to run away from everything.... I can't take this anymore... I want everything to get sorted but idk how and when everything will get sorted out for me 
          Ahhhhhh im really tired i want peace 
          I don't need advices... I just wanted to let everything out that's it 

I'm very confused.. I'm writing this here as i don't have any other place where i can say this .......everyday i feel like giving up ......... In the past few months lots of things happened.. Im not able to concentrate on anything.... I used to read wattpad stories to pass my time but now im not able to do so.... I love singing im not trained neither im good at it  still i love doing it but i don't want to do that either.. Studies, i have lost every interest in that im trying so hard but im not able to focus on my studies... I have an exam next month and i haven't prepared anything..... Im looking for colleges but im confused about them too.... Im confused about what i want to do...... My life is so messed up (no it's not) my stupidity, my carelessness has made it messed up... I wish i had focused well earlier now all i am doing is regret.. Regretting that i was so careless.........

@-RzMxonJi ahhhhhhhh i didn't see this jsnsksmdodrmrkrkkrkrnrjrkr

Hi! It would be great if you took the time to check out my friend's book. I just wanted to support her cause she's getting demotivated.  :)
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/237870821?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=Miss_Strings&wp_originator=3IwagJSwaAOy1%2FN6cG3kUEmmUS0txbLgnLNVvIJvgYakeD1cr29bimD0sD1FLgykj8P0Ok3rTObJjVPDOAFealL6Z322LxV5jYjeyk%2FuBAGf5FpGDsrsNJ6Hwf8kY5SL