Your_Local_Gambler
Okay but like
Anyone wanna start a random Minecraft server or smth?
Your_Local_Gambler
Your_Local_Gambler
I need
Professional help
I know that. I know it. I do. Because of I keep going at this rate, something bad is going to occur, but what if it's supposed to happen?
I went years without talking to anyone about any of my issues. I went years lying to my doctor because I didn't want to upset my mom. I went years without getting the help I needed, so what if it's too late?
What if I'm beyond it?
I always do things like this
I sit here and I let miniscule things bubble and fester, and eventually it will boil over and I'll go insane again.
One minute I'm filled with tremendous hatred, and the next I'm sad. And I feel alone. And unwanted. And then I get the urge to block everyone and ignore the world.
I should be asleep right now.
But I can't sleep.
I keep thinking that I hate them. I'm so indecisive on how to feel all the damn time.
Not to mention yay I'm sick.
cow-on-moon
@Your_Local_Gambler — I am so, so proud of you for taking that step. You’re going to be ok. <3
Your_Local_Gambler
@-crownedvixen- Thank you. I actually finally called and got an appointment with a therapist today, I go in September. So I just gotta get through until then, and then I'll be fine
cow-on-moon
— You’re never too late for help, or to talk to someone. The only thing you need to understand is that if you /want/ help you have to cooperate with the therapist. You’re going to have touchy subjects come up. If you ever need someone to talk to about those minuscule things, you know I’ll always care about you and listen.
Your_Local_Gambler
I don't know man.
Like I can't even tell what day it is anymore. I have no sense of anything.
Legitimately was late to work because I thought it was the day after and I had a closing shift.
Did a double take while clocking in because I thought it was the day before.
Thought today was Friday when it's Thursday.
I don't know if Im burning myself out or what but sheesh ig give me ideas to write about since Im in the mood.
Your_Local_Gambler
@SinfullTrashHuman Kind of is concerninnng lol Im usually good at telling the time. And no, nothing specific. Just whatever pops into your head^^ could be a scenario too, like a characters reaction to certain things, oneshots, etc.
SinfullTrashHuman
@Your_Local_Gambler I’d says it’s concerning if this isn’t the usual for you, because I generaly have no sense of time myseld. Is there a cwrtain theme/topic/fandom you would like a writing prompt for :0?
Your_Local_Gambler
So I might go back to my old account... Idk I might but eh
Little_Monarchy if yall remember it heh
Your_Local_Gambler
*s c r e a m s*
Your_Local_Gambler
Anyone have a discord server I could join
I probably wont really talk but like- Idk man-
Your_Local_Gambler
@SinfullTrashHuman That sounds pretty cool^^ Like I said I prolly won't talk but like- I get bored-
SinfullTrashHuman
@Your_Local_Gambler The only server I think I could invite you is the chaos that is Weird/Alibhe/Saiorse’s corner of the internet. I’d say it’s pretty fun there, but that’s all I can think of.
Your_Local_Gambler
Going to a hockey game :)
My grandpa and cousin are in the front seat talking about how violent it is- should I be scared--
Your_Local_Gambler
Idk why I find Duolingo memes so funny recently-
Your_Local_Gambler
Discord being weird for anyone else?
SinfullTrashHuman
@Your_Local_Gambler no it was acting up for me to but it atleast came back on mobile.
Your_Local_Gambler
I may open Commissions in March!^^
SinfullTrashHuman
@Your_Local_Gambler :0 I’m sure alot of people would die to commisions you! Your art is gorgeous!