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Hey- It's been a year- A long drawn out year that felt like it took forever to pass.
          I've come to say that I'll be deleting this account, but don't worry, if you're reading this and want to stay following me, I have made a new account
          I just have... memories here that I don't wanna relive. So yea, I have a new account @callme_attie
          The account should have a pink aesthetic currently with Jeonghan from SEVENTEEN as the profile picture.
          Thanks for sticking around if you did, and I'll hopefully start writing on here again soon.

Been a while hasn't it-?
          I guess I just lost motivation on here-
          Came back with over 100 notifacations-
          
          For the short while I am back I wanna explain some shit
          
          To my discord friends (that prolly wont read this but- eh- worth a shot ig)
          I deleted my account, i just didn't find any pleasure in staying on there
          I hope everyone that was on that chaotic and fun server is doing alright
          I've actually become happier after leaving discord, 
          and I don't mean that to be in a bad way
          I just felt like i had more time to focus on myself then trying to help everyone else
          it's not healthy what i was doing, it got to the point that i had very severe panic attacks
          
          for wattpad peeps
          I honestly just forgot to check wattpad,
          i'll probably catch up on some books
          and maybe do a bit of writing
          definitely some rping too
          but other than that i'm not going to be too active
          hope this fits everyones needs and why i've been gone

Thanks for adding my book to your reading list!!

"i'm not really sure if my words make sense to you
          but i can't really find
          any other way to sort these feelings into cubes
          and sort them in my mind
          
          the negative thoughts go on the left
          and happy things on the right
          and there's a little corner saved just for you
          
          please let me know if you change your mind
          cause inside i'm falling and i
          need you to pull me out of this decline
          i realise how hard on you this must seem
          but trust me
          when i say it's far, far worse for me
          
          please, please be there for me dear
          cause i've never needed a friend more
          and i can't stress enough how much it means to me
          that you're trying
          and i, don't mind if you can't hold me like
          you used to cause i've
          never hated myself more
          but this is just a bump in the road
          and i promise i'm trying
          
          give me a moment to get my cards in line
          cause i'm still trying to figure out
          what kind of order should i set them
          if there was a way to explain everything
          without a word
          i'd have a full house right now without a doubt
          i'm trying to tear the wool from your eyes
          but a part of me wants to let you be
          cause then you wouldn't see what i've become
          i'm trying to shout out but no sound comes out
          it's like we're in a dream state but i should've woken up
          woken up by now
          
          please, please be there for me dear
          cause i've never needed a friend more
          and i can't stress enough how much it means to me
          that you're trying
          and i don't mind if you can't hold me like
          you used to cause i've
          never hated myself more
          but this is just a bump in the road
          and i promise i'm trying"
          
          I promise I'm trying ~ Cavetown

"cuz.
          i can't do shit right,
          i can't learn my lesson
          i can't do shit right,
          take anti-depressants
          illness and welfare rovbed my adolescence 
          
          my friends probably hate me,
          can't answer a message
          filled with anxiety,
          always be hidin me
          feeling inadequate's always what's driving me
          not a role model, thats not what i strive to be
          can't go outside, i'm afraid they be finding me
          
          paranoid bout my privacy
          and they always asking questions bout my face
          can't relate
          fucking caught my owb reflection; broke a mirror the other day
          got a lot of bad shit that i'm taking to my grave
          got a fuckin date with death
          on house arrest till trial date
          so i grab the red wine on rainy and then i pour it
          cause i'll age another fuckin thousand days before i know it
          yeah i'll spend them all inside, waste my tkme while i'm scrollin
          but i love when it rains,
          cause i'm agoraphobic.
          
          i'm not okay
          i'm not okay
          i'm not okay
          i'm not okay
          what's the point
          i'm not okay
          what's the point
          i'm not okay."
          
          ~ agoraphobic - by CORPSE ~

"Here I wm waking up
          still can't sleep on your side
          There's your coffee cup
          the lipstick stain fades with time
          If I can dream long enough
          you'd tell me I'll be just fine
          I'll be just fine 
          
          So I drown it out
          Like I always do
          Dancing through our house
          With the ghost of you
          
          And I chase it down
          With a shot of truth 
          Dancing through our house
          With the ghost of you"
          
          ~Ghost of you - By 5 Seconds of Summer~

My feelings start to drop
          My eyes start to sting
          The stinging doesn't stop
          I hide it with a grin
          
          My cheeks flush red
          The tears pour down
          I climb out of my head
          The grin turns to a frown
          
          People start to gather round
          Asking "Are you okay?"
          I don't dare make a sound
          What do they want me to say?
          
          My face is dripping blue
          And my eyes are full of pain
          I'm looking right at you
          You must be insane
          
          My insides are abused
          My outsides are pure
          My emotions are confused
          What was I hiding for?
          
          I am pulled into an embrace
          And held for what seemed like 24 hours straight
          I stayed still in place
          This felt...great
          
          I wiped the tears from my face
          And a smile took it's place
          
          My heart felt warm
          I realised someone cared
          I was fighting through a storm
          Now I didn't have to be scared
          
          Although some days may seem gray,
          It's okay not to be okay

GOODYBYE @/-LUMITY,
                    HELLO @/-B0DYTALK !
          user change <3

Ask me any question, and I will try to give either a really fucking weird answer, or a dark answer. UwU

Random bullshit me and my friends have said
          
          ווווו×
          
          "FUCK I DIED(i was playing Mario)
          
          Attie thats bad for your health don't do that."
          
          ווווו×
          
          "The FitnessGram™ Pacer Test is a multistage aerobic capacity test that progressively gets more difficult as it continues. The 20 meter pacer test will begin in 30 seconds. Line up at the start. The running speed starts slowly, but gets faster each minute after you hear this signal. Ding A single lap should be completed each time you hear this sound. Ding Remember to run in a straight line, and run as long as possible. The second time you fail to complete a lap before the sound, your test is over. The test will begin on the word start. On your mark, get ready, ding.
          
          NOOOO THE NIGHTMARES
          
          HOW DARE YOU REMIND ME OF THIS
          
          AHHHHHHHHHHHH-"
          
          ווווו×
          
          "My special talent? Being somewhat gay and remembering Pokemon, that's my talent."
          
          ווווו×
          
          "I
          am
          gay
          ty
          bye"
          
          ווווו×
          
          "He fuckled a bit, slowly bringing the other teacher close so he wouldn't fall on his ass (we were in a discord rp server UwU)
          
          heh. fUckLEd
          
          ATTIE DON'T YOU DARE
          
          hehehehehehehehehehehe"
          
          ווווו×
          
          "OMG ATTIE RAN INTO ANOTHER WALL
          
          ...
          
          is the wall okay?"
          
          ווווו×
          
          "Imagine being able to spell *sparkles*"
          
          ווווו×
          
          "I just want a sheep to add to my army"
          
          ווווו×
          
          "I love it when you call me a fiesta"
          
          ווווו×
          
          "Bitch how- is you a praying mantis or sumthin-"
          
          ווווו×
          
          "I
          am
          going
          to 
          scream
          
          I'm already basically deaf so it wouldn't make much of a difference- but continue"
          
          ווווו×
          
          That's it for now lol- if you want more of this just say so and I'll try to find more random shit to quote UwU