Youresuchahypocrite

Anyone switch schools, but also switch personalities? Like, I was introverted, a bookworm, my vocabulary is the dictionary, and liked playing dollhouse with my friends. And now I’m still introverted, but speak up when I’m passionate about something, only read fanfictions and the occasional novel, and use my vocabulary for arguing. 
          
          Still nosy though.

*hugs*

A good thing about my weird sneezing fits is my family doesn’t question when they hear sniffling coming from my room.

I'm so envious, so so envious. Just because people aren't fulfilling the too-high expectations I set. I miss my dad. I'm excited to see him!

I find it funny that I have no wisdom teeth. Like, they never even grew in. Clearly, it’s a source of problems

Update: I am now currently leaning back, looking at the ceiling of my bedroom out of pure embarrassment of a situation I created in my mind. I'm fucking fantastic, huh?

I hate my emotions, I'm like a fucking Sim. I was just crying my eyes out, stuffing my face into my blanket, and know I'm suppressing a laugh as I read a style fanfic. All in the space of about two minutes.

 #don'treadtriggeringthingsyouknowaretriggeringwhenyou'retiredandemotional

I just realized that I have been self-harming. Oh. Well. Hmm. 
          
          I hope that my fingers heal up soon. I'll probably keep doing it. I can't talk to anyone anymore. I have no one. 
          
          I don't know what to do anymore, you guys. It's not my dad's fault. He's so fucked up, it's not his fault. Neither is it my mother's, she always tries. My brother's? No, he's just following what he's been told. It's not your fault either. 
          
          I don't know whose fault it is. Maybe their fault? Those bullies? At least I can say they didn't bully me for my looks. My family, the people I'm supposed to trust, I can't talk to them. 
          
          I hate my dad, but I love him. I want him back. Please, please, he knows what it's like.

Anyone have that song that really makes you sad?
           it's Billy Joel's lullaby for me. I miss my dad, and it reminds me so much of him!
          
          I just. He's in Maryland, he's been there a month? I think? Most of the time when he has a campaign, he comes home for the weekends. I know I said, that I was 'eh' about going there, but I want to see him. 
          
          Even if it's tough with him sometimes. I know he just wants what's for me. Yesterday was Mother's Day, and I asked him how he was doing. His mother died of cancer, when he was 9. I just, I miss him so much! Whenever I get tired, my emotions come out. REALLY COME OUT. 
          
          It's just, I miss him so much. He's the only one I can talk to about my grandfather's death. If you didn't know, someone on here had their grandfather die and that just really hit close to home. 
          
          My mother, she's the one related to my grandfather (Papa) and they never had the best relationship. My dad says they never connected. I did. I know I did, we talked about the Tudors! I had never met anyone like me before, someone so passionate about their knowledge. 
          
          I've noticed that I haven't been reading as much anymore. Only fanfiction. Just, feelings. Venting.