Trust into yourself, You don't have to be a perfect, just be yourself that you want to be. Be the one that you want to be, welcome to my account you can be anything you want. Just keep alive and do you life. Close your eye, Don't listen to what they say. They're just jealous of you. There are many ways you can do, you can escape from this hell. 

Just keep relax rn, in this world is many things you can do.